2004-2005
my mind is empty.
not exactly hapi.. nor upset
waitng for the email to be -attached-
i ve been fixing this job thigy for the past...4-5 hrs....
wow.. now i feeel damn 'done'
searching for pics is not fun at all.. haha
when u have to thnk.." she look gd on this?" " she told me which photo she like ah?" "where did i put that?" " which look do they prefer?"... n it goes on. hahah. funny.. its true u know.
so long never write blog..
so much has happened in just these few days. week...
the world
me
my mind
my body
my hart.
my frens...
:)
but today's the last day of 2004
i shall not dwell on anth just yet! ha
let me see..
2004..
wad have i done?
hahah/ my mind is in a blank...
so much has happened..
but i cnt name them ! jialat.
schooll..work...(new job)..frens ( new ones)...
home ( i moved twice)... family( went on a short holi w family,aunt etc...) ( dad was almost diagnos w c. Grace got marrIed!!!!!!!... wynn turned 1. haha.... )
i think im too tired... trying to stay awake while the dumb thing get attached.
anyways.
i hope that e coming yr will be v v v much better then 2004
my hope list! -to-do list- ehem.... i promise to try
# grad.
#further studies.....(smth i like..r better at)
#go for a holiday... with frens n family. (they r coming back in april!!!)
#get a licence
#get wynn a bf..( mayb i' shld get 1 too! hha)
#send wynn to obedience class( if i have e extra $)
#deco my room n pack e hse.
#plan my future
#lose sum weight
#save some savings. hah
# adopt a child (unief)
#groom myself
#watch all the good films i missed..(french..spanish.bollywood...)
#learn a new skill
#visit some country... india.maldives.bu bu island. ( im really hopinG! ha)
#read
#upgrad myself,,
#learn n never stop.
#be 'chong shi"
#learn to cook more stuff (sucessfully ones! bake....)
#more sports OUTDOOR
#visit e spca
#be less sensitive
#less emotional
#make merry
#be stronger... b bold n firm!
#independant for the gd... nt for myself.
( im quite independent now..but i tnk its overly for myself.i tnk)
#have a healthier lifestyle
#less dreams n sleepless nites...
#cut down n last min.
#grow taller???haha
#grow pretty? elegant? haha
#buy more mature clothes..
#shoes... more of them!
#fix my hair n skin. :(
# i tnk my list goes on....
#love myself n the world more...
#.....tilt back to Him.....
much more..
but im tired.
(my list is so long i could wrap it round me !hahha.. im crazy.)
n hotmail is killing me...
it has gone dead for the 5th tym....
i love u all..
How can u describe how u feel when u don't wvwn know!
i tnk i have a problem.
today at consultation ( finally a gd one). Angela told me...
"Cindy. i thnk u have aproblem.. u don't seems to b able to 'absorb' e impt parts of a conversation.. u hart seems to b wondering.. like goes blank every other min!. u really have problem u know!!.. But u REally CRAcks me up..." and she started laughing.
my god.. she laughed n laugh... after my blur reaction... n thousand n one.. i dont get u.. im lost.. huh?.. she ended up drawing up sumthing verbal!...
i tnk i really have a problem...
i told her.. " i tnk my brain lacks oxygen.." n she laughed again... n told me pls get a tank soon or she laugh again!.. _ duhz- even my lecturer thinks so. i shld tnk about it..
having a bad bad knot in my head..
cant explain it nor feel it for sum reason.. but i seems to acknowledge it... understand? nvm
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-forgive me n u dont have to understand me-
i've never understand my hart. but iknow how it feels.. how its make me wanna go, wanna hide, wanna run.. wanna just walk away..
its nth about it.. but its smth around it? get it? i tnk no1 will.. but its ok..
im still figuring out myself too..
today was'nt the best day.
but i shall let it end here.. so that tmr will gd.
i really feel like crying now.. but i can explain y.
im more emotional then ever,,...
Week...summmmmmary
Today( as in yest..bcus its aldry midnite!)
i went to Asia Pet exihibit...
Had a wonderful tym,
The feeling of being a mum!!
Brought wynn ther. there were lots of dogs, cats...
plenty of merchandise.. n yes we bought quite a bit..
i tnk im over spening bcus of her..
it felt like im shopping for her..
We bought her this 'santa' outfit! ahhahahhaha...
( evry1 was like.."santa santa"...wynn's all dress up for xmas!")
n this 'princessssessss' tee.. it comes w owner n pet twin set! ehem.
it suppose to be like i wear the pink one w the word 'princess' n ur pet wear the 'prince' tee in blue.. but since she's my gurl gurl.. i bought both pink , princess! MYgod.. i never knew i would buy smth like that! hahah..
the shop keepers there were really really nice. n everyone seems really nice.. dogs were everywher.. n smiles n conversations were exchanged!.
The shop wher i bought wynn's clothes even called me 'mummy'..." hey wynn, let mummy dress u up k... i hold her u go look arnd n see what u can get, let mummy go choose k,...blah blah" hahahhahahahahahhhaah v v v funny
but i was a proud mum.
a happi mum.. n now..
a v broke mum! hahahha
happily broke though.
( santa's photo's on my frenster!)
oh nt forgetting sum animal stuff learnt!
:
did u know that budgie-'love bird' dont like to b pat on its back?!
n pet birds like that u dun have to clip their wings to keep them frm flying?? :)
yep u dun have to, u can always have more interactions w them n keep them close to u.. eventually they'll never wanna leave ur sight!! haha.. n never will wanna fly away.
( personally, i tink e reason y we cant pat it on its back its bcus we mgt break its balance... i tnk)
theres this machine called 'pet translator'!!! hahah
that helps u to translate wad ur dog is saying thru its pitch/bark/whine....
n its a device that won some awards! hahaha...
cost arnd $200..
but if ill ever strike rich! i dun mind! hahah..
so funny, imagine Wynn whines n the machine appears.."im hungry.."
the ad abt it looks cool too!
so many more... but cnt recall any now!
but got a conclusion! Wynn's nt really attracted to DOGS.. so sad! haha..
she seems to b more atttracted to humans! waned her to make sum frens today.. but she was quite unfriendly! :(
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my feelings for this week is really extremelly.....
like hot milo mixed w a multi flavoured slurpee.
i dun really wanna mention abt those negative times.. but im reflecting on e hapi ones..
bcus i m a happi person.. n ive grown to love life n appreciate things more then complaining n feeling sore. i must say at this point o my life, im abit lost, v much not good, more of a plain...
but im glad im still looking for my 'right' place, my happier life n appreciating the gd things i have, e wonderful times im having n e ppl that cares. i knw it may sound more bullshit then anth but u know wad.. i love to bullshit.
i just felt that this week seems v much better than last wk even though i cnt slep tonite bcus i havent done my wrk which is due tmr! haha..
' i guess ive seen thru things n felt it there, it no longer hurt, no longer sore, it has becum more of a worrying period like a wound that has healed many tyms but came back.. but im keeping my fingers cross it'll cure. it will.'
" life Gave me a Lemon.... n i made Lemonade out of it.." - frm tv, sum kid on e charity show ad.
my god. dun u tink iits really gd :)
i hope the next tym im upset.. which will b soon! ha.. ill b able to slap myself when im reading this! dun u hate gurls?!!
- when u think u know sumbody, u often dont'.
-When u think u worked the hardest, n u often worked the least..
u know wad, i just realise u know me more then i tnk u do.. bcus u have been working hard to.. n ive been sitting arnd acting smart n enjoying u...
its a complexxxx thing.. it makes me scared..
but every1 think it may b e best thing..
actually.. i tnk otherwise.
-the end-
bfor i go...got smth for e gurls!
" GIrls that r small in size...
U R CALLED PETITE...
but... when guys r small in size...
U R CALLED PATHETIC!"
for my dearest ginny dear..n those BAS***ds on the mrt that day!
oooops. haha..
its a phrase frm my mighty 3rd sis! APPLAUd aLL... hahah
myloVe...
Ups n Downs..
today's a total..... there were realllly bad tyms.. n realllllly gd tyms..
bfore im gonna share my thoughts.
wanna do my all tym fav.
watched sum show on animal planet the night before.
n learnt smth...
Do u all know that animals have feelings? they can be upset , happy or angry?
animals n i mean all kinds including fishes...
researches r trying to learn more frm their facial expressions..compared to human's how often show their emotion thru their facial expressions..
Fishes:
Have u all wondered y fishes in the sea has other small fishes swimming arnd them? yes they r to eat their fungus n clean the other parts of them which they cant reach.. but do u know that the fishes themselves enjoy having them on their body?
A researcher reared a fish, he used a stick n made a fake mini fish on it, started to put it near the fish he reared.. the fish started to swim near the fake mini fish, n showed signs of 'happiness'... he eventually toook out the fake 'model' n just put in the stick.. guess wad? the fish continued to swim arnd there n allowd the owner to sort-of scratch its back/ rub it...
Fishes also loved to be rubbed n scratched like dogs?!!!!
Monkeys:
chimps at a young age is almost like a toddler.
Their facial expression can tell whether they r happi or not..
they show their feelings physically.
whales:
From the show Free WIlly.. my fav.
The whale in that show was kept in this tank in sum country, he was left for visitors to view n researchers to study, he spent his two movie yrs in that tank too, like in e story, he was an unhappy whale, kept in captivity since two yrs.. they found out thru many test....
n they eventually freed him!! hahah
ok i think my eng getting worst.. coz im quite tired..
wadever..
Gd..
now i dun have to share any thoughts..
TOday's entry will b abt ANimals Ba.'
:Be strong my fren:
mylove
nth impt.
Was so nervous all morning...
din sleep last nite...
did stuff till 2am.. slept till4 plus.. wake up and continue...7plus slept again.. woke up @9plus....
(u r sleeping yet ur mind is thinking.....)
took a cab againn.
The taxi driver speeeeeeeed his way.. n i think he thinks im sick.. felt so worried for me.. n when its was i think17 smth.. he only asked for 17. hahah... first tym my taxi fair this cheap! i mean.. its tampines..
i tink my facial expression made him pity me...
i was then nervous. worried n reluctant.
1105, decided to just dash in!
n i did. with Taz.
Angela asked us to join the consultation then... we went to sit at the far end.. she shouted with me behind her..."CIndy, u okie alrdy anot?" better??".. i replied.." no... stil nt good.."
"..poorthing." i was like.. cindy! stop asking for pity alrdy! ahhaha.
As a lecturer.. she can b as mean as a er......i duno la..mean.. but she can also b some angel.. n yes yest was my lucky day!.
in e end i din present.. just share my ideas.. w taz n issac arnd...
guess wad. it was rather positive! with me trying hard to fake my way thru those research.. she told me..:"ITs not enuff!" but i knew... n she helped me go thru sum tinking process... n made progress to my proj. she ended with.." Cindy... wads ur passion?" i stared blankly at her.. wantd to say.. "the zoo?" hahha.. but i know she'll scream.. then i said." more to advertising. i guess... " Taz added..." she is more on e print side.. advertise, sell brand....." then she said... "try to do smth that'lll showcase ur passion... it will b ur portfolio remmbr... but again.. ' i c that u r the more vocal kind.. like those that touches harts n speaks up..more on e emotional aspect in life!'".....blah blah... "cindy u have some gd stuff ther... work on it.."
I FLoated to the cillling.
went for lunch n wanted to find alfie for sum attendence..
at 1pm.. found out there will b presentation @ tv studio..
F*** i wanted to swear.. i din knw lor. n after consultation.. everything has change.
but i just went! i din have a choice.
3rd to present...
after DArius' really bad arguement w the two- lecturers u'll wanna just throw stones @.. the air in e studio became tense. they told DArius." If u still don't get us.. i tink ur 2half yrs here has been wasted.."! Damn... n darius replied.." i think u r right abt e 2half yrs.. smth U all shld think abt!!!!" it was WAR.
but i went up there.. crapp my way.. n tried to look innocent.. n prepared! hahah...
guesss wad. i got a two head nod frm both! :P i off i went..!
"firstly... i wanna thk my mother, father... sisters..blahblah! haha.. not forgetting........
Me Kek for ur great help... ur article..ur inspirations..haha Kl,gin,hl n june for just allowing me to share, yumi for always willlingly share those late nites worrying for me, ur msgs..... yh.. for always assuring me..n stan for keeping e positive attitude.
hahah...as if its e final one alrdy! hahaha// its not la..bt im glad it started off well.
thks to all!
343am. im stil awake,
i know im crazy. i just woke up! ha
after e long talks. w e gurls.. many things went thru my mind..
but ive realise we r alrdy mature adults that issues n opinions gets too sensitive.
its scary bt true.
i dun reallly wanna comment on anth here.
BLog is never safe!
but im glad we all had a piece..
i had fun. thks to them. i said my piece n i felt gd after.
xy, our clinic nt bad! haha
* to them that reads...
Stop spinning things off my blog n starts spilling it to me ur way...
i dun expect u to go arnd telling me..
or relfect stuff to me..
in any manner...
i duno how to put it..
but it has made me angry.
(read n just pretend u din. i dun wanna know!)
blogging will never b the same.
i'm not refering abt u gurls...
mylove.
i ran away again.
escaped presentation... i knew i wasnt ready.
but duno i shld b hapi or not.. i heard it was pretty bad.. w alot of us nt turning up.. others were screwWed.
keeping my fingers cross for thurS.
today's thoughts:
She said..." in the past..it used to be me that has these "topsy-turvy" mood changes... but now it seems like u thats having them..."
i makes me wonder.. it makes me think alot.. n i realise that its really true..
MY GOd. i feel like my life seems to be going backwards.
( like the Merc. ad abt life should start when u r old..)
i seems to b matured when i was younger.. n now i seems very much childishly immature when dealing w things.
i cry more then when i was a kid..
frankly. when i was young i hardly cry.
i was a 'matured' kid! :P
its sounding pretty scary. ha.
anyway.. life's changing faster then i could feel it.. or realise it. weird n scary.
i feel that many others r changing for e gd...or i shld say maturing?
but me.
( gurl, today's conversation. all i said was "chAn Le" - in chi.
because.. i duno how to react.. but when i said that.. i was smiling. really.
i feel that this point of my life was made happier bcus of U... b it ur 'love side of life' or ur frens, ur attitude.. ur maturity.. it seems like u have made me a better person... )
Yumi... thks for always encouraging me.
frankly i feels weird to know that sum1's reading ur life!!
moNday's:
suppose to do my work. have pres tmr..
but its almost 7 n i stil have nth done.
really wanted to go watch SLeeping beauty @ e esplanade today.. but i cant..
tix gone to waste. sorry sis.
watched tV all day.. tears fell since2pm! bcuz all e shows i wath was damn damn sad!!
Pet nation, emergency vets : this dog Trevor had nose cancer. his family wanted so much to save him despite the $ spent n tym n trouble.. but for dogs. vets wont recommend to operate on their nose. n he was in pain.. even though w less then 6mnths to live they put him to sleep b4 that. the doctor had to explain to this child in e family.. he was really sad...
then there were another case of cancer for an old dog.. they gave her up too..soo damn sad. but ofcoz there were better stories like the cat who swollowed a dime, n this puppy who has an extra intestine that caused his her Bp to drop.. :) i love Animal Planet!
Then i watched abit of Opera, there was this singer who fought her eating disoder, now she has an album abt '...all u need is love...' oso quite sad! haha.. everyone needs lovE.
moved on to canto drama, watch this show for the duno which tym.. n i still cry. haha. so touching.. "Lu jing sui yue" they love each other but he has piorities, he stood her up n sacrifice her yet she did not blame him bcus she understood... "... loving each other n being able to have a future is two things.." smth like that.. :P
n finally, this chi show abt searching for lost pets! waaah... oso so sad! hahaha...
ther u go.. i wasted all me tears n time!! haha...
n now i have to stop writing coz im hungry n wynn sleeping on my arm while i type is giving me a cram!!.." wynn u snore..!!" haha.
keeping my fingers cross for tmrs pres..
let the ideas FLow tonite! ha.
cheerios!
my heart is smiling...
im really tired now.. but i wanna write this before i wake up tmr.. n start to feel upset n worried over sch!
Was @ Laguna golf n country club since 8am till about 9+pm
its for this charity event...called 'CAre United' raise funds for the soccer scene in spore.
Mr SM GOh was the guest.o.h..
( he seems like a really nice man.. waving @ us frm his buggy..)
got to drive a buggy!!....
serve tons of drinks...
met tons of rich men....
used up all my voice...
stood thru the wet day....
n the list goes on..
we were there in this grp o 6..
we started crapping since the early morning...
pack 100+ goodie bags like crazy ppl.... talking behind the many bodygaurds that came for Mr GOh.. they even fix up those metal boxy thingy where u walk pass b4 entering e flight area in e airport...saw the police dogs... blah blah..
( oops. stan.. my tiny metal bottle in ur pocket made the alarm went off!haha.. paise)
there was alot of time i cant help but smile...
n i got to drive a buggy.. BUt.. i almost knock onto sum1 driving @ the wrong lane! haha..
n MR J. decides to take the other buggy instead !haha
i think e best part was at the Vineyard dinner area..
( those old songs..n uncle n aunties even went out to dance.. how sweet..)
buffet w guests.. we had to help out w e prizes n stuf.. but eating n crapping..waiting n working... singing n luffing was all there were...
n it finally ended... we had truck ride half way hm...
singing...luffing...blabbering..bickering...
my GOd.. we were having alot of crazy fun.
( the moon above us... n the wind against us.. we were singing... from the national anthm.. to those crappy songs...)
i mean.. im keeping this damn short bcuz my eyes r closing.. haha... but yet.. im smiling.
a day il always rememebr... esp w the plastic flower now seated on my monitor.. from the xmas tree @ e club! haha... sum1 stole it for me.. :P
i m very glad i had a gd tym @ wrk today.. at least my week will end w a smile..
having others msging me to thank me n my guys for the 'fantastic' job done.. n the great entertainmnt.. n really feel glad.
WOw.
i felt the bond. this special bond..
friendshiP...
tks guys. tks ger.. u made this possible.
mylove..
cant tahan le.. ned to sleep.
(hl..thks.for ur msg.. u r forever this swet)
cnt wait WEds my deary Xy's bday..
tmr will b my Dooms day.. but keeping my figners cross!!!
CHEERIoS.
im smiling..
today's a wonderful day!.
finally my week can end w a smile.
(crossing my fingers for tmr's golf day.)
after a long evening of laughter n chit chating i felt RE-charged!!!!
its like it has soon becum a lil mini grp of 6.
its a weird combi.. but who cares.. i did enjoy myself.
i felt that he did too.. n alot of things seems to be changing in some way.. i think i shall nt share it here.. but i just felt alot today...
(happily uploading e pixs.. haiz.. hope to put them on here )
i wanna give all my Sventies gurls i big hug rite noW.
after going thru e emails n ur blogs.. i felt so touched.
gurls.. u guys r e closest to my hart.
thku for always appreciating.
yumi. i read ur blog.. n it made me wanna cry... but it was tears of joy.
i applaud ur optimism.. n i have to say.. u r working hard to leav things behind n look forward ..
b strong my fren..
Xy, i din know my words meant that much!.. really.. im more then happy to hear..
kl..thks for ur encouragement.. never knew u guys reads my blog!
anyway.. reading my names on ur blogs.. makes me..... ermm.. how to say..
makes my hart smile?
hehe
misses..
btw.. im quite doom w sch.. anyone has any ideas to help me? need to do a video for my FYP.
advertisement? Campaign? Drama? Docu Drama? local stuf.... haiz! hahah HELP HELP.
gtg.. tmrs gonna b a long long day...
mylove.
yest long hrs of under-the sun working was really bad.
complains n complains i had frm all..
im inbetwweeen . n im sick of being that.
its like one complains about him/her.. n i have to help pass the msg in the most 'nice' way..
i felt like a hypocrite
but they r my frens.. n above me r my fren/employer.
i tnk ive been facing this since duno when..
i hate it i really do..
this is not the first tym it made me wanna break into tears.
but i remembered the last tym i told myself i shld nver let it affect me.. i can just quit.
i hate it i really do.
y cnt ppl b more understanding? y cant they just look at things n use their initiative, think b4 they do things n think b4 they say things..or complain!.. y must they keep trying to pretend.
n make use of me.
they never thank me.
they just felt that its my Job.
But sorry its noT.
i feel like swearinG.
i hate this job.
n guess wad.
tmr il b working for 14 hrs.
i wonder y must i get myself so tired n so upset.
.. i feel like shit again..
cnt wait for weds.. thks gers. thks for always caring for me..
dun worry abt my blog.
i love to complain too.
mylove
!
its almost 2... im to wake up @ 5plus..
for e past few hrs.. ive been listening to everyone..
but wad abt me.
im tired n im very very upset. no1 asked.. no one tried to understand..
but still wanna smile i look forward to tmr.
sumtimes.. i feel that God has never forsaken me even though ive went away..
i feel so guilty.. so sorry.
thku.
i think i still wanna thank them for allowing me to share that part of them right?
ive achieve smth in another way i guess.
thats y im a happi person.
:miXed:mEssed:
its one of my worst time in school...
this time im really unsure of my direction.
Had briefings n briefings n briefings all day. One frightening me after another.At Angela's class was a damn cold morning w a damn cold 'hart' ?? was hiding myself all morn.. was afraid she'll ask me of my project ideas... which i dun have any one pround to say.. luckily she didnt.... relief...
At the briefing.. found out i was posted to Alfie's grp, Totally disappointed. other reliefed n happy but i wasnt' not sure y.. but my unhappy thoughts sure did pass his ear while i was discussing it with wesley by the corridor n i realise he was just behind us.. i bet he is gonna screw me up @ tues presentation.. Dooooom
@ the video briefing.. i was in total shock.. less then 10 weeks b4 submission.. then external n internal presentation right after... 10 weeks.. its really too short. im scared. next week onwards idea presentation n license stuff to be done plus recci shots...guess wad.. i have nth. n i still know nth.. for once im really scared.
sometimes i wonder.. is my reluctance on doing this project due to my attitude that im not going to b in the Des industry is sitting in?
its so wrong. how could i give ideas n help brainstorm fro my frens yet have nth left for myself?
I was still worrying for Dee, consoling her.. n encouraging yahssir n the others, n yet, i m the one that needs help e most. they have ideas n r going thru the assuring period n research.. but yet im giving them assurance. sumtyms i wonder..
but i m glad they turn to me for help..both in sch n personal stuff..
its really v v worrying..
today Grace called me up to ask me to give up my place n video editing class for her. She needs the credit to grad. n i alrdy have enuff. but bcus i wanted to learn more editing stuff.
its was a long waiting list of students. n Gail told me i couldnt even sit in if i wanted to learn..yet tommy offered to teach me one on one. :) i was really embarrassed but happi.. but dumb me went to sms him.. n after that he saw me n said.." now i dun wanna teach u anymore.." haha..i know it sounds messed up.. but thats wad my feelings are.
messedupn unsure.. im typing n nt reading bk.. i dun wanna care. hack my typing error.. hack my grammer.. hack my language..
bcus i jus wanna run away.
Ah.
wadever. im a happi person. n i shall squuuueeeeez sum ideas.
wad ever it is. i must not fall.
as i was reading Choice Mag.. i picked up smth.
"....pick 'em up, dust 'em off and get 'em moving again..."
n oso i read abt sum chimps issues...lets SAVE them.. less then 150,000 left... n orang utans remember? lesser n lesser.. thouisands only.!!!!!!!!
maybe i'll really go work in a Zoo. haha
mylove.
(today i felt sparks. i was in a mess but i see sparks..
im sorry. i shldnt bcus i know its wrong. but in another hand im glad. life's full of surprises... lets anticipate ...)
crazy
Help.
im crazy again!!!
im writing funny stuff online to my frens....
i was pretty crazy at Karaoke.. played sum SLapping games... got sLapped several tyms... n stil smiling.. wad was i thnking..?
its actually mid week..or early week but im still quite crazy..n happi..n slacking..
confused.
i really hav nth to write. after yumi said my blogs' hilarious?? like bridget Jone's diary ( oh my i forgot to mention how much i love this show!!!!!). i wonder how funny it is? i read sum n all i find were spelling errors n sad senerios of my life!
haiz.. hoe crazy can this get..its suppose to be sad!!!!
frankly now i thnk that i only write blogs when im not hapy...
hmmm... so since im quite happi now.. is hall keep it not-so long!haha.
c i m crazy.
anyway..il definately b sad tmr! hahha.after slacking n returning to Tp design horror... il b back to update..
mylove...
(btw yumi..i tink hl's funni-er.... the hl initail thingy.. a chi word..il explained it to u! hehe prove my less-funny side!)
BLEAAHHHHhh
firstDAY
Bleah...
today's...... hmmm.. OK la.
Although i had to sit thru the unbearable 'moses's' director's welcomeee..... speech..
Started with me ended up in a class full of yr2s. ( one of them gave me a big front teeth smile... he tot it was funny.. i din... kids!)
around 10 of them n 1 of me. haiz... then a great morning hello from Angela Chee... my video lecturer that lovessss to criticize basically everything..n anything.
Video Editing class was a total Bore. this new Lecturer from CNA,
Jail ( ehem) showed us clips... n introduced sum basic editing stuf...WHich i all have knw of n watched at Angela's class!!!!!! Ahhhhhhh. then comes
ALfie ( the lecturer that talks too much...) oh ya how can i frogot i was at the wrong classrm when alfie called me up! OOPs. haha....
anyway... the day went on n on....
Went to see MR. t.....( this was the irony part... he didnt even smile much to me... he was busy... i raved thru the crowd of students when he signal at me to pass him my form w/o que-ing... (yr3s have privilages or....he treated us diff....) i pass him the form n told him the director met me by the bench n wrote to approve of my dropping of subjects with an annoyed look on my face... he smiled at the paper..n said: "dun worry i know what to do".. i replied with a thanku..n asked if he needed my timetable... he shooked his head.. n walked away... before i cld say anth... students on the que behind me made their way infront o me...)
i didnt even really c him.. or talk to him.. the look on his face was less close.... it brought me back to the sms he sent...( U can if u try....) he has never gave up on me... n have always gave me so much help... n yet i disappoint him...
im sorry.
my story will go on n on...
but i shall stop here...
tonight ill fix up smth n show it to him on thurs when il b having his class!!! YES... i must
i long for the old sincere smile frm him. n ofcus his doggy stories.
ohya..nt forgeting Angela's promise..
(...the next tym i c u, i promise to have smth i on my mind.. my idea......) What was i thinking!!!!?
now she wants me to present the final thing on monday!!!!!!!!!!
Eventful!
105days to go.....
the final lap.
sch starts in about 7hrs?
a new start...a new nightmare.
looking back on e past weeeeeks of holis... i hope i could really smile from within.
but wadever it is.. i shall not brag over whats over but look ahead..
like wad edmund say about 'the last sem..must chiong....' n he promise to (remind?) nag at me to work hard everytime he c me? haha..ed..pls do so.
im shall be happi..
just abit nervous to c... frankly... Mr T.
i regret not doing e flash during e holis... pray that i can do it these few days n give it to him on thurs. :P
ok..its 130am..
n im stil trying to hide frm sch!! AHAHAHahahah.....
i wanna scream.
The first and greatest commandment is, Dont' let them scare U. - Elmer Davis
i hope that it'll b a gd start. Tp design.. im back..
i shall try hard to look forward to Dee's surprise belated bday instead. ! hahha...
If you don't know where you are going, you'll end up some place else. - Yogi Berra
- i hope its not true.... mylove to all.
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Maturity begins to grow when you can sense your concern for others outweighing your concern for yourself - John Macnaughton
have alot on my mind.
have nth i wanna say.
oh i went to sentosa..
ive been out all week..except today...
chose to stay hm on saturday. the last wkend bfore sch starts....
i thnk my fav. tym is walking wynn...
i thnk im mad.
i thnk im nt well.
frankly..
im very scared.
yes i m.
till nxt tym.
