it always brings me tears and encouragement reading Molly's entries.
She is indeed someone really strong!
i got an issue of Vanilla just because of her :)
anyways i was reading Sumiko's article on Sunday Life (due to Ginny's influence! haha .. i used to just browse and read those with titles that attracts my attention!)
She talked about Breaking up today. and ofcourse the 'example' was the sportsmen pair in Sg.
i totally agree with sumiko.. ok almost.
because if anything becomes ugly/painful/hurting...
or in other words, if a relationship could turn that way.. wouldn't a breakup be a positive turning point of the above??
The other area mentioned was if a couple can still be friends afterwards.
hmmm.. i really think.. the "frens" thing is just for the sake of a prettttttty closure.
but again.. if its possible that'd be great. probably if the r/s wasn't deep.maybe.
i think the kind of breakup that would be most painful is when there's still Love.
thats the kind of breakup both parties would be hanging on as friends. with a hope that lived in the future kind? or probably for the many reasons that caused the depart...
i guess i finally understood this,
jj once said to me..
"i don't think i can be friends with u if we b.up/or part for any reason.."
oops!
i once thought that was really selfish.
but i think i've learnt to understand that.
:) men : but on the bright side...
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i caught a glimpse of jing shan shun's final few epi today. i nvr really watched it actually.
there was a scene.. about a bus ad.
it wrote smth like..
Love like it will never bring you pain,
Sing like there is no one,
Dance like there is no tomorrow..
Work like there is no money...
(smth along this line)
it struck me.
:)
should i shout aloud..
"LETS JUST MUG LIKE THERES NO MORE PAPERS AHEAD"
haha.
but i read it:
Do things without measuring its returns and thinking about ahead.
like what he said " i wanted to give you all a simple yet 'good' performance"
it was really simple, and really good! he was an enjoyment to watch! i specially enjoyed the video-graphics on screen, they weren't those made-graphics, but those with story lines!
putting his vocals aside (it was soooo good thou) he shared about, War, Race, Love, Peace. i think that was his theme for his world tour. It was Amazing.
( i am very very encouraged/inspired, probably that was why i always liked him )
he said "Love, so abstract, yet so strong that it can move mountains.." and he sang 就是爱你' :)
Videos of War, Poverty... and he sang another song.. with 'ai ai' at the chorus
( i cnt remmbr! the title! ) and many many nice moments i'd say!
i guess its not those super exciting concert, but it was GOOOOOD stufff for me! he also had FUN lil those Rocking out old time fav english songs @ the end!
the other thing about his concert was how he makes the WHOLE BAND perform with him! no one is excluded! you'll get to see the basses, guitarist etc all over the stage, David doesn't make himself the limelight throughout! amazing! and he performs with his guitar with them.. they hop around.. he covers their eyes, joke and mingles etc!.. and ofcourse some exciting moments, excitement.. sexy stuff etc.. and yup.. he flirts with... one of yh n my fav.. kewei, quite abit! :P hahaha.. but really i saw was a wonderful performance of the whole BAND!
there was a video with all the crew.. they says things like ..
"i'm XXX" "I'm from SG" "I'm the director" "I'm human" u'll see david in the video with them :)
he just wanted to express the differences n similarity.. we are all HUMAN :) be it, religion, race, nationality, statues, forte.... :) and majority of his team's from SG n Msia! wierd huh! he even had those traditional malay kind of drum, indie dancey stuffs... ooooooooooh i like! :)
i can go on n on! :)
and finally. i was really charmed by his words.. most of the time! n especially when he thanked his buddy @ the keyboard.. whom he worked with for many yrs, a singaporean.. and he said about them having GOD in their lives.. :) and ofcus.. him thanking GOD all the time! and saying " for everything i do .. can do.. its to GOD... " hmph.. i really melted. OOPS.
although my 'sponsor' melted when he sang : "Susan 说" hahahaa.. my sis's suzanna..
haha (get it?)
i had moments just having an empty mind enjoying it.
our light sticks :)
David & Kewei
His charm :)
on Guitar!
On my way home :)
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on the side note..
I had 2 lil angels that drop with with SweTs..
this exam period.
and they really makes me feel very loved.
Thankews dollyn n Hsuan :)
dol gave me some 'weight-gainer' happy foood in a preeeety heart-print carrier :)
and yh had to remind me "special moments" soaked in her warm words of encouragement :)
it wrote about a woman suddenly loving being single.
she mentioned about dating herself', and haven't been spending time on her own even since she got attached or has been in a string of relationships. she said " i have been so busy pleasing everyone else, i wasn't sure what made me happy"
it suddenly sounded familiar.
i have such thoughts for the longest time. i think i'm horrid. because i rant about myself in a sorry state before it sores.(to myself) and i think its not very positive. but yes i often seek for pleasures for my own, and only my own. i long for alone dates, out of my 'box' scenarios, self excursions, trip away.. alone and for myself. i think i even dream about such once a week?? although often it couldn't happen due to my incapability (in many areas) and my self guilt to.. i'm blessed that once in awhile such lil episodes do happen.
not that i don't enjoy being with someone, neither am i not please with the other half, (smth i have come to terms about individual's differences) and of course the area on the L' word. You don't just fall for some1 and end up in a R/s, and its not everyone u would choose to share family habits, your biggest tee shirt, food you can't finish, reveal the messiest corner of your wardrobe.... and so many more..
but its the 'I' word.
has your life become a habit or a schedule that has an influence on you? or have you forgotten what would you be doing rather then doing for?
its like when you have a family. i suddenly realise, its like a pre-practice of having a family of your own that revolves around your priorities, just that it will be "Your'' family so its part of "I"
(OMG I FEEL SO RANDOM)
but yes, the article wrote "... it really is most almost impossible to get to know yourself when you're in one"
haha. and why did i ended up with "wanting to know myself"
but its really true that i always have thoughts about Dating myself.. and no one else allll the timmmeeeeeee! ( and i often do such. but mentally its different when u know u are not exactly alone )
- A real relationship, whether it's with a friend or a lover, is about finding someone who brings out the best in you, enjoys the best in you and loves you for the things that you love - credits to the lady named Cooke from the article.
finally.. i guess being human, i might be just another selfish curious unsatisfied soul that is ever seeeeeking for more. but to the innocent 'other half'' - this has nothing to do with u. :)
but again. The grass on the other side is always greener - Ms chin's
(i suddenly realised my entry is pretty ''no-link') blame it on the exam woes!
张艾嘉 Sylvia Chang' : her movies always have a kind of attraction that keeps me thinking for a bit more :) she loves to interpret things in areas u least expect it.
i enjoyed it. not super fantastic. but nice. n it was nicer w the company of my sisters. it has been a long tym since we movie-ed together. :)
it ended alil abruptly .. as it seems to be.. but actually.. we" realised there was smth more to it. i guess not every1 will like it! its really nt exactly like wad the poster looks like!! but just nice.
i enjoyed Rene's acting very much!
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its the exam period again.. n thus i hav fallen into my Sleep-addiction. i hav a sleeping problem during such periods.. i just never get enough of sleeeping..
im weird.
recalling last sunday.. staying up outside til 6+ in the morn rushing proj.. n returning hm for a bath.. n returning to sch for submission! it was alil crazy.. but deep dwn.. i enjoyed it! :D its gd to ''go thru'' things w ppl! - sounds alil weird thou.
hope that our efforts wont be wasteD!
i remembered not sleeeeeping at all for fyp for 3days.nites. for real! the only tym i tnk i slept was.. when i was on the car to sch that 3 mornings.. n i really didn touch my bed nor slep for real. i cnt believ i did that too! n ofcus i remembered many who was with me thru that then.. n for few that was there w me lattteee.. n was ther early.. n the 1 that told me how horrible my skin looked after that! :D
Early morn,(7+am) my dajie sms me " Wakeup, open the door for me, i'm at the door soon"
As i had a test @ 10am, i was alrdy up... (HAHA)
i walked to the door... opened it.. stared @ the lift.... as it reaches.. and passes my floor..
i sms-ed her back, " Walk faster!! i'm there alrdy!!"
YES, i thought she was really coming, because she often pops by.. and this morn she was to acc Grandma to the Doc's, thou Dad was suppose to pick her up from her place..
She replied " OK i'm Reaching... HAPPY APRIL's FOOLS" HAHA.
... ... ....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
then i think my dajie sms my er jie that she was @ lot 1 waiting for her...
and @ dinner.. she pointed at her own chin hinting to my sanjie ~ "theres a stain on ur face"
AND SHE SUCCEEEDED!
ARGHH.. hahahhaha..
where were the days I used to FOOL others???
:(
i immmediately tried foooling ppl online... n to all my attempts...
only MR JJ got FOOL-ed!
i told him - i left smth in one of his cupboards some time ago.. and ask him to go search for it- And he did..
and after some time.. he told me he couldnt find it. and i replied.. " look closer! u may find a noted written "Happy April Fool's!" and he replied me.. "DONT HAVE"
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home. If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home. If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.
If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home. If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home. If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home. When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home. If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home, Boy, my love will get you home.
