May has never been this hard.
I bid farewell to M* on 19 May. A decision i never thought would be this hard.
There were tears, disappointments, joy and love all together.
4 years of growing up and gaining experiences i never could have gained elsewhere.
I learnt skills i never thought i would have, life experiences and independence through the years.
I travelled in the name of M* to places i never thought i would go and met people from all walks if life as well.
It have and will be one of the biggest achievement of my life.
M* will always be special.
[my bosses and their kind words. It truly showed our close relationship. I am truly thankful]
4 years of growing up and gaining experiences i never could have gained elsewhere.
I learnt skills i never thought i would have, life experiences and independence through the years.
I travelled in the name of M* to places i never thought i would go and met people from all walks if life as well.
It have and will be one of the biggest achievement of my life.
M* will always be special.
[my bosses and their kind words. It truly showed our close relationship. I am truly thankful]
[The Friendships made. To keep a lifetime.]
There has never been a more satisfying feeling to know that your once encouragement or lesson you gave to a younger one was remembered and made a difference in their lives.
Thank you M*. This 4 years has been truly remarkable.
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On this Memorable 19 May 2014, I made another big decision of my life.
That evening after parting at M*, H and I gave our first Offer of purchasing a flat we were fond of.
That evening, we had the blessing (and questions) of my family.. and we gave our first (and only) offer to a flat. The rest is history, as we are due for our first HDB Appointment this July...
That evening, i had a good cry of worries.
H was by my side and we entrusted our worries and faith together as one.
Then after, H and I heading to HK for our lil break (More of my break from M* and before the new adventure) This break was also to say hello to H's Relatives and a peek to what H's childhood was like :) I truly had a really special time and experience not a tourist would have experienced.
[Met his Mom's Family, visited the locals and understood how life is like in a city like that. H tried his best to shower the elders with care and it made me very proud of him. I played the happy and little tourist Fiance that was very well fed]
[We also marked our Anniversary together as One.]
Unfortunately, on the 3rd day of the trip i received a call from Home (Actually a missed call from my other cousin). My Cousin Eugene had a blood vessel burst and fainted. He was actually in critical condition and we were all asked to visit him.. (I was away and all i could do was to pray and receive news from home.)
He went home to be with the Lord after a 48 Hour battle in coma. It was really a heartache to many. Till today, all of us are still in disbelief that he has left us and his family of 2 little ones. Everyone was helping out at the wake, the evening i landed, i head down. It was really tough for the family. Everyone have been trying to keep My Uncle and Aunty company, we had many meal plans, visits and constant messages. There was so much love.. I really could relate to my cousin who lost her brother, her every tear shook me... My dajie picked her up with big hug when all of us broke down saying our goodbyes, she called out to her big brother and my Dajie assured her she has all of us. She lost her only big brother. We all lost a love one. But my Cousin Eugene was someone we are all proud of, i met so many of his friends he met through his life. They shared so many good things of him. The Eulogies at his wake was filled with Laughter and Tears.
That evening, i learnt another lesson. I even went to a wedding after his wake, not because i have dried my tears, but i knew i had to keep loving the living. (I think i cried so hard i felt this sore in my eyes and pain in my head. I wondered how i made it through the evening)
Now we gotta love more. For him.
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Another new beginning started on 02 June (OK out of May)
I started a new Job and 1 week has passed.
I'd say it has been fruitful as well.
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The amount of tears i shed in May could probably fill up those i did for the past 2 years or so.
But May has passed.
Dear June, please let me enjoy you well.
Let there be no tears.
Let there be Joy.
I almost forgot, there was another bitter sweet chapter for my dearest June as well.
She will be away for 10 months on an adventure... I have to say, i know she shed alot of tears as well. Her words to me also made me go teary.. but i know, she will be well. God has big plans for her and she will be home soon :)
Darling Jeric said his first Word this May too.
I shall not complain.
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