2010.11
i have waited for this very day.not to welcome the end of 2010.
but to tell my parent's their baby girl is old enough to feed not just herself but them.
my daddy's smile and mummy's funny words of thanks to me earlier makes me really really happy.
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2010.
I made my move out of my bitter self at the old job,
i become the only A&P @M*ji.
I having been giving real $ and paid real home bills since
I popped by the land of the rising sun for work.
I continued my Journey of girlie denials and played truant.
I attended my Big Cousin's wedding and was made bridesmaid and there's a family gathering where we welcome 2 lil new member of the family
1) Baby Rachel 2) Baby (london snow).
I made friends with people i never thought i'd like
I had the most number fights with dad
I went to my first checkup
I shed the last tear from 09
I made my heart and mind understood reality
I said goodbye to my closest elder, my grandaunt
for all the things that happened and did not happened,
it has brought me this far...
2011..
License
Job
Love
Habits
Savings
Australia
Health
Commitment
Givings
God
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please wait...
Just finished watching "life reconstructed" on chU.. Amazing story and big hearts of ppl who helped the needy, sick and abandoned despite the differences.. Making a difference in a child's life and giving him/her a new lease of life from there on; I couldn't feel less emotional and in awe.
I can't help the feeling of overwhelmed emotions.
I heard another story of a passing from my sister.
2010 has so much growing up done and it seems like the pace is stepping up.
Can 2011 wait a-little more?
2010 is just settling in...
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and I'm so awake now...
Overwhelming felts
For who may I...?
while we splurge on gifts and hesitate to buy that expensive bag,
others just wished for the necessities for living.
as we feel blessed this Christmas,
*i love the way the Gift Catalog is done (named)!
3rd day of Christmas..
my life still seems like a dream..
not a nightmare, neither the sweetest dream,
but it's been well.
and i wonder when will i wake-up from everything,
be in control and live my life in ideals.
but looking at my baby in the santa outfit sure gives me a big smile.
life's lil reminders ya!
Merry Christmas ~ :)
Season of living..
Back from a dreaming road trip..
Dreamy because I can't believe i'm back in the real world and the mind is still on dreamland mode. Sleepy-ish that is..
But life's lil lessons never stop reminding me of being grateful.
The trip was filled with much exploration and simplicity, despite Mr GPS and Walkie was our best friends.
But all was good and blessed being able to be safe and having the care and being as one 'farm' (our pet name) and true enough like a Farm, we played our part (big or small) we went and experienced as one and made new memories as one :)
Life's still good.
Reminder of our blessed journey never stop running in my mind :)
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On a side note;
I've just made my new year to do number 01 thing to complete 2011.
1) obtain my license.
Felt daddy's need once again last night but god has been wonderful~
what gives makes me happy almost instant?
Just send me to a Manicure & Pedicure Session with Feet Scrub and Hand Moisturizing...
:D Clean and Soft Skin on the hands and feet just looks and feel gooooooooooooooood!
oh, i just realised that Mr Dry-skin is definitely a office girl's most hated friend.
now you know where all the $ went!
am i spoilt or lazy?
hmmm.....
i like~
chapter xxx @hm
Mum: "did daddy tell you what happened yesterday?"
Me: "nope"
Mum: "your Wynn ah, she tried to bite a dragonfly that flew into the house!!! Then daddy and Wei had to stop/ catch her! She very fierce you know! Then I faster faster catch it and put it out of the window"
... (looking at my poor dog sitted on my lap)
"the dragonfly is very different leh, blue colored wings, very nice..."
Me: (poke the dog)
"...so will strike lottery tomorrow?!!! I want to buy bag!"
Mum: (smiling)
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Flyday-s
M kept awake as i visit(s) mr.toilet to ease aches.
Found myself reading..
Read and had baby snuggle thoughts..
but I slapped myself out of it as soon!
Did I say how slow my mind is today?
:) thou not in complete slomo mode yet, I feel it alr! Hmm.. How slow yet steady i wan it to be?!!!
Nights!
Happy Birthday to my Senior Witch!
:)
For friendship.
For witchcraft.
For loving and growing up with you ..
thank you for keeping me sane in this insane world.
:)
:) :) :) loving my girlies. :) :) :)
sventies+yh+auds.
good night!
^-^
Bittersweet
• The !!##¥|\#%!!! bone on my feet hurts so much It makes me feel like crying.
Remembers my sister and he would rub the bulging bone fr me (post soccer, long working hours)
• Watched, felt yet heard u saying about details of e story I forgotten.. Still in awe of such when heard..
• Dreadful commitment and responsibilities and yet have no say.
• I love the festive yet I hate that I dislike it so much this year...
Movie
Narnia.
Wanted and caught it.
Belief, temptation, adventure, faith...
The religious aspect of this film reminded me of the triumph of life and e goodness my belief.
CS.L's interpretation of a belief, one has in a fantasy world truly amazes me.
How did it be such a reflection on the real world!?!
Unsure if my "connection" interpreting the film was right, I felt the agreement within myself.
You believe.
Living what life has given you with a reason.
Work through life's hurdles (adventures), live and overcome your fear/temptation. Live right.
When time comes, you'll see him and reach the other-side of "life" :)
Oh well. Another loooong-me thoughts takeaway.
Nights.
I am
On an impossible LAZY mode.
So bad that it is ugly :(
What's the 1 thing u wan fr christmas?
Listening to e morn.exp!
They asked this qs and it kept me thinking!! ( nth out of the impossible and more material ) e.g ppl mentioned a paid house, winning lottery tix, the new XX car paid etc...
Smth almost immediately popped up in my mind when I heard this qs! ( they were talking abt the overwhelming snow at Paris, eiffel tower just before)
*DRUM ROLL*
I want a trip to a place that's snowing!!
Snuggle in a house by e fireplace w special someone seeing snow at the window as we sip champagne!!! And together, wakeup on Christmas morning with friends and family opening pressies by the tree!
:)
Is that too much to ask for?
Ok, what about being at the Eiffel tower looking down and watching snow falls?!!!!!
(Erms, ofcourse with some warmth!)
I cannnnnnot waitt forr...
our ROAD TRIP with the rest already....
this was JBJBJB.. :)
i promise to TRY my best to wake up earlier for breakfast
i promise to TRY to not waste food or nibble food
please promise to not 'peep-listen' to me pee......
:P
can't wait! can't wait! can't wait!
Weird morning tickles
" I like to look at you, especially in the morning..."
I seriously blushed thou it's not said by a guy nor cute nor applicable! My midweek ain't that bad after all... (cross fingers)
Yes,
I don't know
What I want.
Embrace black mondays
Yet another roller coaster Monday.
Life just ain't a bed of roses
Yep, it was totally shitty all day (Monday) but before I find myself at the tip of my womanly emotion, I decided to begin my consoling countdown + self denials that alls crap only because it's Monday.
with that; I embraced it.. all the way i did..
And true enough I turned lucky! (blessed!)
A trip to waffle house with mr grumpy (surprisingly low level of grumps today)
It was amazingly calm and serene sitting outdoors overseeing the rain (car)..
I really turned lucky.
When life's a bitch, just hang in there yea!
You just got to!!!!!!!
I'm really weird. I don't know what's the point of my post.
D.R.E.A.D
1.to fear greatly; be in extreme apprehension of: to dreaddeath.
2.to be reluctant to do, meet, or experience: I dread going tobig parties.
3.Archaic . to hold in respectful awe.
–verb (used without object) –noun5.terror or apprehension as to something in the future; greatfear.
6.a person or thing dreaded.
8.Informal . a person who wears dreadlocks.
9.Archaic . deep awe or reverence.
–adjective10.greatly feared; frightful; terrible.
11.held in awe or reverential fear.
(copyrights dictionary.com)
happiness from 'growing up' memories
had warmth and mixed feelings attending
a wedding of our beloved Sec Sch Teacher!
He even remembered the life-size MeToYou Bear card
we got him for Teacher's Day then!
he mentioned the 'pacifier' inside cant be used alr :P
that was soooooo.. long ago...
always loved the train of the wedding dress...
:)
the wedding was filled with the little gestures of
His Cheeky and funny side. Look @ his Grin and Smile!
Congratulations Mr Kenny!
and you still look like how Cute you were 10 years Ago!
(and Mr Gan's "lousy" comment about us girls
being Not Married/ Attached still makes me smile thinking about it...)
Girls, it was really something special and once in a lifetime for us to attend together,
don't you think so?!
^-^
Sudden sentiments
Love, life, heart and needs.
A full cycle.
Is there one for each of us?
I can never seem to choose...
Bittersweet anger.
I seriously wonder if it's meant to be.
My life, my job, my area of responsibility .. Is there even a "area".
I can only be comforting myself there's always a reason for whats happening.. Think positive!
Friday...
Because,
I don't know what is right and I don't know what I want...
