Long working hours Morning calls from bosses Never ending working commitments
It only got better because my boss no longer calls me and yell, but calls me to find a solution n fix things w noise of her kids and short msgs of "ok thanks, pls proceed"
But all in all, often my sleep is broken and I question "is everyone like that or is it just me?"
I snuggled at my mummys fr that half hr or so, touching my hair as I rub her knee.. I was falling aslep..thus I crawl bk to my bed.. Bur I'm listening to some1 sing the 4th tym...
it gives me a big smile to read/ hear of the happiness of others.
as much as i grin in envy, i feel happy and it gives me a weird encouragement and warmth :)
as least there are joys around yea?
~
Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton.
It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear. She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair. And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?" And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."
We go to a party and everyone turns to see This beautiful lady that's walking around with me. And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?" And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."
I feel wonderful because I see The love light in your eyes. And the wonder of it all Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.
It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head, So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed. And then I tell her, as I turn out the light, I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight. Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."
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as busy and stressful i am.
as tired and scared i am.
i can't allow myself to throw in any towel.
breathe and don't complain ya.
it's just part and parcel of the job.
breathe, breathe, breathe..
listening to the music created out of someone's love for the other and life just makes me sleep better :)
if i could, i'll tell you both".. your love is really sweet and blissful.. and ever encouraging.."
Woke up in cold sweat and felts of crying. The immerse feeling of stress is overwhelming..
As I stand in daze on the train, I heard a short int of words ".. It's like a rubberband, u feel stretched, but afterwhich you'll feel fine" I took a deep breathe and agreed.
A friend (annoying one) reminded me i could/ would blog on my journey home... Thus, I shall! :P
My blog and me, how it started And when? It's been yrs! Frm a channel to update my dear gfs on our daily lives, to using it to vent upsets, anger, share joy and random thoughts! Everyone shld know how ur happiness doubles or sadness reduces when shared :) Writing feels like I'm talking to someone I know.. I used to be really bothered when ppl comment or finds my blog.. Bcus I tot it's not meant fr all. But I've come to terms with it! Fr me, this blog is my little guide/ track and notebook that has bits of my growing up/old days..
Sometimes I'm all different here, other times I may be all me.. But IT IS all me :) mayb tad more emo n grumpy :P
N it sure feels gd to read bk and smile knowing that I've gone through shit and is all gd alr!
But it's me in different layers and in different moods. I write I feel better, I write I feel happier, I write I remember, I write... I'm almost hm! :P
Dear blog, only you can take my nonsense and longwinded-ness :P
Thanks fr ur patience and thanks fr staying with me fr tad long!!!! Now w my iPhone, I'm bugging u more but yet u hav no complains!! :D
"Sometimes we come into a person's life not to make them love us, but to let them feel that they're so much worth loving for." from Lightedpixels Photography ..
It feels gd to go out in shorts n birks at this hr.
Caught Healing Hands 01 on tv (thus the rush) and coincidentally on the episodes of lil bits of what I'd like and have done before. It's a weird feeling, but definately not bitter.
Breathing hard and well! Because I believed and still believe.
Why do I feel crappy and soft listening to Jason Marz? * it's been a week. Life went by a week just like that. If we could hold on to time for the right reasons..
"..nobody can be judgmental every moment" says my dear ms kek.
the amount of denials and emotional reliance control was tiring. the pressure was making the air stiff.
i shld't have turned and relied, put my mind on any other. because i have to learn to be more then me.
i will remember the smell of light air with my company of a half drank coffee walking out of the freezing theater today. for all the reason i know, i feel happy for myself. frankly, i surprised myself.
i just needed to do smth with the reliance of none. becasue there is no one. and it is ok.
all of a sudden; life is getting brittly short and feary. time clicks loudly by my ear. but everyone is holding on and sharing warmth.
Do you have love hate relationships with ppl u truly love? I surely do. The no. 1 on my list has got to be the father.
My dad's growing older grumpy traids totally irks me as i grow up. His care and love fr me can be my greatest joy and pain altogether. Trust me, I lose my freedom and leisure-wants the opposite direction growing up. I was never given a curfue until the later years.(after 21) But y dad is still e no1, overshadowing fatherly ties? A lil action today reminded me so. ;he never says no to favours of the elders, family. My grandaunt's lil needs, a phonecall from them, mydad wld do all he can, from being a lorry driver to being a chauffeur of the passing. Today, dad rushed to transport a bed fr my bed ridden grandaunt(my mum's) on his co.lorry after a phonecall frm my grand uncle early in the morning. (he was nagging so much at me to hurry up while sending me out). He displayed being a dad I'm proud of again. Sometym back I heard a story told by my aunt. ;when greatgrand aunt past away, no1 was willing to transport her dead body and photography due to superstitious believes, but dad did with no second thoughts, even being just a husband of my mum- the related one. :) My aunt said w teary eyes to me then! She's the grand daughter of the late.
That's the annoying grumpy father I love and respect. I really would like to find some1 with such big heart fr kinship :)
Ok I forgive my dad fr yelling at me last wk fr coming hm at a scary hr :P * it's a Holi-Monday but I feel some blues~ shuuuttuuppp me! :p
