怀念,想念. 心愿
school days :)
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thank YOU for allowing me to remember the old times.
thou its made, but it warmth my heart that after so long
it's still makes me smile sitting there with frens.
be it new or old or annoying ones,
those were where we all started.
;together or individually.
still glad to be able to giggle and make' up scenes like these.
rare and warmth.
:)
".. where ever we are or we may go,
i Thank You for once being part of my growing up memories.."
if we could,
i'd like to look aunty with my kids and yet
feeling annoyed by you guys in the years down the road.
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life's little reminders.
i'm sorta happy.
i think i should be.
i have moments like the above.
savoring life in the most simplest living.
i really find it hilarious looking at the photo above.
i totally cannot remember it being captured.
thou looking f*t, unglam and totally silly,
but i know it was from within,
the smile and enjoyment.
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yet i have my complains.
but who doesn't?
i should always keep it to myself.
reminders are all we need.
breathe and smile yea.
i guess lil triumphs in life are little reminders of the happier times ya.
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when we see others in envy,
other see us in envy.
self satisfaction is all we need.
who doesn't dream of a complet-er life?
but who doesn't travel" till they reach each complete stage.
i believe i am 'traveling' right now.
patience and faith ya.
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like my fav blogger who is being real and encouraging at the same time.
her msg :)
somethings never changes,
somethings changes forever.
dry and messy that is.
but yet filled to the brim internally.
but it's Saturday.
I really am feeling old!
had a dream during my nap, I dreamt of this show I've watched many times on e repeat on scv, 后备甜心. weirdy.
how random I am.
I just need a swim! :)
Please dont bother to understand.
我不是个好人。
我无聊取闹、我小气、我爱发脾气、我爱胡思乱想、我偏心、我分不清。。。
可怕吧！
slice
'I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel’
i think it applies to e nastiest felts and the lovely ones. I choose the later.
;Like how I feel about u and how u feel
about me? :)
;Thanks fr sharing Snr Witch!
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human. mind and heart. thou free to feel. but often, controlled. rightful or just rationale? or neither?
awaits God's plan.
farewell Monday.
fly them all away even if they are pretty~
Mark 5:8
When Jesus saw their faith, he said unto the sick of the palsy, Son, thy sins be forgiven thee.
the way I feel I'm not alone.
although I felt alil hesitant n gittery. I had no idea how to react and face my minced up thoughts. the way things fall out in the conversation gave me comfort. n I recieved your "10" courage alr.. what more to say? I'm already long winded enough :P
a sight to remember.
lately, dad has been waking up later then me. which is rare. it could be his late nights n tiring work with age catching up.
This morn I walked into his room as I iron/ head to e bathroom. The dog follow after me. before I could wake the father...
i saw;
Dog standing up against the bed with her frontal legs n licked my daddy's arms, followed by biting on his blankets as she fall back on her feet! She wakes the father because it's time for CNA in the morning by the sofa before work!
I was smiling away as mydad says "okok, I know, wait wait, going to wake up" :)
I left home with the sight of dog and dad at the sofa watching CNA... :)
-I actually said "daddy, today wynn wake you up!" dad replied "yar, alot of times already.." :) :) :) my baby is such a joy!
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enjoys walking arnd on random nights to checkout what's there on e shelves lately! love book/stationery, accessories and shoe shops most. too much of m*ji trend info is harmful to e real girl inside :P
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on e side note, I need to be reminded again and again that I shld live far away from thee...
saw, read n felt
they kissed-gdbye, they share simple silence, are in their 50s.
they giggled and glowed, they see each other in the eyes and heart but nt in light.
their heart thumped, their smiles exchanged, they stood by their lives.
they held hands, they see each other by the day, they dream wedding bells.
they shared contentment, they stayed far apart, they lived in memories.
they chat, they laughed, they breathe life w encouragements.
the many many areas of hearty matters. what are u?
midweek.
tire-s my mind.
I had the longest Monday. I wonder which is worst?
Anger throwing by the boss or nonstop work weight being thrown and running through your mind. Both makes the head weigh a ton!
Today the boss said ".. you are your department and you are only yourself.." and followed by some laughter.
i want to tell her it's not funny, but i know it meant she understands.
tsk. tmr's another day. e thought of it scares me alr.
booo!!!
but anyway, I love my daddy. cus he is fetching me in abit :P
JumpJumpJump
ok i look crazy in the hair-do"
my dajie practically couldn't be bothered with me totally.
i was jumping around in the hotel room that morning..
(i have a secret love fr hotel stays. and bittersweetness of it too)
it was a really simple friday night.
yep, i soaked, masked, slept and jump-ed around!
i admit my roaming lone start that evening was pretty lonely,
my iphone, gps, work responsibility totally kept me going.
and, i felt very accomplished after.
headed to a familiar place, familiar smell, familiar faces :)
i was in smiles seeing so many ppl and heading back to place i learnt and grew.
i guess no once can understand that kind of emotion i had.
:)
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1) to propel oneself rapidly upward such that momentum causes the body to become airborne
2) to skip or pass over; bypass
3)to enliven or revive
i some times hope to jump the chapter and not be in where i am.
but other times i feel that savouring nows is making me who i am later.
you know,
i've being thinking to and fro.
you know,
i've been feeling alone and selfish and like a spoilt lil girl.
you know,
after talking out bits of here and there,
made me feel a tinge of warmth and felt of being normal and sane.
i know you don't know.
i know i choose to not know.
but well.
knowing or not is a reflection of a kind of feeling.
:)
Saturdays are getting sunday-ish
Wondering mind of a (not)crowded age.
realise I'm wearing coordinates of what I wore in my bday (exclude hair, accessories, makeup & heels). It's almost 2months ago. That's 7weeks?!
The crowded train. The crowded mind.
Sitting here as I have e view of many many men&women. Different minds and life.
A repeated casual discussion of the mummys at work on the disbelief of my availability left me with an ackward reaction between smiling and hiding. Maybe I'm not like e other girls at work who yak abt bfs/men/hubbies. Keeping them curious and story building. Well, how not available can one look like?! But it later moved on to my furtherest worry of the women-y areas. ; pray.
Is that e life of a mid 20s girl? (women)
*do u think I'd walk in alone to catch sg play zimb tonight? Or soak in e tub? Or find dinner mates?
I wonder too...
TGIF.
早餐／晚餐
我觉得我有点变态!!
Had a really busy day, 忙得有点喘不过气！很多时刻我差点要喊"stop disturbing me"! Emails/ nonstop adhocs killing me!
But I continued breathing.. Till the brain slowly shuts having the boss going mad.
But got it all balanced after msg and having ppl's warmth to end my night over a simple meal.
:)
Think it's gd enough to slep thru n continue my mountain of work & a dread meeting tmr!
变态吧、i wonder why can I still be so awake now.
有时，没大问题、有小温心、就足够了！
Nighty :)
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On the sidenote..
I felt like I was 16 again fr a moment. Oops!
tues-day it is.
The happiest person (fur-ball) on earth today has to be..
my baby Wynn :)
(i look like crap. but i think my baby looks sooo "Stun" & cute)
HAHA.
yep, skipped work over women woes.
felt the assurance and hope it's gonna get fixed for real.
it's another day at home.
and i totally hate the existence of webmail.
i'm pretending i didnt check my office mail.
*i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't*
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been alil lethargic in my daily chores and thoughts.
i'd say the laze of efforts and doings have been put aside.
reason being the mind of the expectations has been put away.
well that sure makes lesser satisfaction.
and lesser predictions, dreams and excitement.
and on the contrary, lesser disappointments.
sometimes i wonder is the laze making things not-happen for the right reasons.
and making things happen for the wrong reasons.
vice-versa~
maybe it's the mid 20s age.
HA.
this ugly cycle of turning here nor there.
the dares, ability, possibilities and the scary responsibility.
sometimes i really feel weary of being me and having swirling thoughts that comes and goes.
if only,
life gives a clearer sight things.
but if that happens, selfish thoughts and doings will grow.
so..
only can LLST.
OOps.
unfortunately,
i admit i choose to ignore the many.
i admit i find excuses to keep things intact for my self comfort.
i dunno is that being selfish too. i guess it is.
maybe that is the thing stopping me from having more wants & expectations.
i just hope for happy days.
no meanie bullies.
warmth hugs.
silly jokes and cares.
random excitement.
worry-less future sights.
and of course..
stability in the mind and heart.
breathing.
slice-y lil thoughts.
watching 溏心風暴之家好月圓.
素心and至信 love story. and ofcus..永好's love for 心.
it is really alil disturbing on the truth about the human heart.
the selfish wants. the actions for our self doings for moments.
or should i say the excuses of being self-less.
but well, all that we say and we talk about.
what is right or wrong?
who is to be judged.
i'd like to find someone to tell me there are rules in this hearty game.
i'd like the best game holder to be by me and make me stick to his rules.
i'd like to be whole hearted once and for all and forever.
because i realised i do not like the game at all.
i like it true and i like it simple.
but for all the reminders i should know.
God has his plans for me.
patience yea.
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what a thing to talk about on a unblue monday.
trust me. tmr will be e blue-est tuesday.
我疯了
Woke up at 5..
But I'm glad e show I just caught made me smile :)
Tuck me to bed now~
Sound of the mind
I actually e enjoyed my alone time over lunch the other day.
N to my surprise, there's 3 other alone women around me.
I guess it's ok and not wrong but well, it ain't the happiest sight.
I didn't have e best tym, but it sure gave me a breather.
I really had harsh time at work.
Sometimes I wonder, is it the age? Is it the working world? Is it the phrase of your life?
These alone time feels all different. And this harsh world has been pushing us further.
But, I'm actually one who loves e warmth of human.
It's confusing.
Blabbering nonsense falling aslep~
doesn't feel as happy as I shld feel
Abt my weekend... ~
Mattew 7:7
Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
I have forgotten how it feels like to fall asleep with hearty warmth tucked in bed and wakeup staring into the half opened eye in smiles..
I have lost track of the days..
I can't believe it is only tuesday..
And I couldn't sleep..
Counting woes instead of sheeps.
只想安静的度过一切。。
好累。。
Feel alil guilty to keep quiet when my dad and sisters talk to me.
I'm sick of laughing and smiling over the nastiness of things..
Sorry.
Forgive me and let me be unhappy fr the night. I'll be ok tmr..
Work woes - ethics.
At the brink of tears as I stoodby my words.
How Childish u r, I'd say.
It's mentally tiring. Torturing. Especially when you are alone. Or when there's no1
That u could trust/ tell/ turn to.
Bcus the "island" has no safe "bridges".
Breathe.
It almost snapped when I was told not to be nice n draw the line.
This "mean" world is hitting me by the day.
But I stand.
Because I am not carved but others.
Glad I had nice ears/ smells*/words and noisy family to go hm to...
Hearing mum&dad squabble, hearing lame jokes by the sisters... Telling my baby I love her n If she miss me w her shaking in excitement (ok maybe it's fr treats!) makes everything all well fr now!
Tmr, I'm on armour.
Bring it on!
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情、谊。
The kind of feeling and look I felt and saw/recieve has been the far most simple yet indescribable.
Although, nth bitter sweet nor happy. It was "alright" n comforting I'd have to say.
Counting the years back just made me realised it's really been so long ago. We both couldn't believe it, It seriously took me awhile to let the years sip in. But it seemed liked a gd way of reminder to us.
Why m I so sentimental towards all these felts and looks?
There's been so many "looks" and "felts" around me lately that I wonder; if it's all these "felts" that makes the human heart live longer, feels chilly, sings karaoke w more feeling", makes one treasure and yearn w hope or is it a tiring cycle that entangles the human heart?
I can't provide the answer.
But I know. It's embalded with not just 情、but 谊 too..
So whatever it goes, just leave out aches and tears bcus it's suppose to keep the heart "going" fr all the reason in the world.
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It's Monday,
But its ok ya. Breathe!
