the bare reality
the ugly bare self.
instead of the pretty simplicity of basic.
it is ugly.
like my feet above.
look deeper;
you see the sore, the chipped nails, the bulging bones on the artificial greens.
thats the BARE reality.
;
i am starting to hate to hear myself talk about my complains of work already.
i bet everyone is sick of me.
trust me.
i know how it feels to hear me.
the world does not revolve around me.
i apologies.
can it be understood that all i need is understanding and support?
give me a hug and let me cry.
i am tired.
i need to see the light.
the girls are right, growing up is tiring.
i do not want to live with it.
...The Reason why i love Mid-Week-Wednesdays...
(gregreg looks really cute here!
1short! dodo who was being mr gentleman..
coolman is forever busy.. i meant his expression! :P )
*Friends*Smiles*Tennis*Food*SleepyCarRides*
:)
colours
i am trying to look beyond it all..
i want to see the colours..
i really do.
i miss the colours.
i miss having to.
*
Somewhere over the rainbow
Somewhere over the rainbowSomeday I'll wish upon a star Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
:)
nite~
breathing.
that was the last time we had a proper family dinner-celebration.
mum's bday in oct09, next up will be dad's in march...
looking at it..
i really really wanna bring them out for a meal.
i longed for that. very much. its really the kind; me-bringing-them-out for a nice meal.
i felt the love amongst all these bitterness.
my sis even got a cab to pick me home just now just that i can have dinner with them..
i asked for magnum icecream and dad got it @ the petrol station w mum n sis after..
what else can i ask for?..
*
i really wonder, am i just running away from what life brings?
"..can i lay next and rest that weight..
just your shoulders or the warmth of the hand,
hear your voice and deep beats of the heart,
let me breathe and feel the lil more drive to feel the good to go on and well.."
breathe..
i shall be well.
balloons. colours.
*stole this off the web*
i'd like to be like that.
or at least feel like such..
where's my balloons?
*
^-^
Two Is Better Than One.
the colours of my b/w weekend.
my gloomy weekend turned cheery bcus of....
girlie days never goes wrong! but..
u either go poor, grow fat or both!! HAHA.
*
my annoying animal friends.
so much love for yh tonight!
so much joy and simple time around...
so much laughter and hopes that we can have fun all night!
*
who; waits for you everyday at home,
just for that 5mins of your attention?
my baby :)
it's been like forever since i sat down on the sofa,
watch tv, snuggle with doggie, chit chat w family..
thou tired and late..
i lay like a tired piece of dough,
snuggle w baby, watch tv..
and spend time w mum n dad..
*
i suddenly miss having something..
is it true that you can't have the best of both worlds?
*
confused by self depression of a split second
Frustration/Disappointment or PMS?
PMS (from wiki):
Symptoms - More than 200 different symptoms have been associated with PMS, but the three most prominent symptoms are irritability , tension , and dysphoria ( unhappiness ) . [ 1 ] Common emotional and non-specific symptoms include stress , anxiety , difficulty in falling asleep ( insomnia ), headache , fatigue , mood swings, increased emotional sensitivity , and changes in libido. [ 3 ] Most formal definitions require the presence of emotional symptoms as the chief complaint ;......
i trust that it was a split second of PMS this evening.
i never knew i can get so upset. (thank god it didn't lasted long)
i reckon and am pretty sure.. it is the scary pms symptoms that came. and.. left. hur.
ok, i was pretty disappointment/ frustrated (ms kek suggest)
but well, i remind myself this kicking 2010 should make one a toughie.'what does not kill you make you stronger'
i chose this.
i knew it.
i can complain, sulk, cry, lone,
but i gotta digest it and live it.
tsk.
i forsee some thunderstorms tmr.
this is just PART of my life.
oh, roll my eyes and i'll get over it.
*
being a woman~
Grand O'lady.
the sight of breeze where you hear patriots ..sing/scream/smile in their glory.
at least i had moments like these here ~
after all the action.
the bare concrete, melting tracks, soiled field..
camera/journalist files their stories..
i always loved this sight of aftermath effort.
(btw, i saw someone whom i read her blog.. it was a weird feeling thou!)
although the many times of final matches we had here..
i am not sure if we will ever play here again.
well today may be the last.
glad i managed to ran up to the gallery area and had my
fair moment of the crowd.
i even caught the only goal we scored! :)
and of course, after all that walk, i have to sleep with tired feet!
but well, what's that for the ' grand o'lady'.
i sometimes just love the old-stuffs,
because, they gives you the nostalgic feel and that
never fails to warm u up.
i really had great times here,
from being a kid/fan to a part-timer/vacation/volunteer and now a staff..
should i say i grew up with the O'lady?
:P
*
i actually encounter someone passing out near me.
and after the medic then ambulance came.
life gets this unpredictable.
and sudden.
don't we feel that experience and live each moment as it comes?
*
yawns.
on random notes;
*am wondering if i will be introduced at tmr's mtg..
*mybaby greets 2010 with a new sleep area,
she'v been moving her beds to the entrances of our rooms :)
i walk out each morn seeing her at my door step!
she is our baby!
*how can you be at the right place at the right time?
*
goodnight!
allergy.
i am allergic to;
1) grumpy/sulky natured humans.
2) bad tempered natured humans.
(men in general)
i know i get grumpy too.
i snap too.
but i do not remember being so sulky and throwing tempers.
i am not brought up that way.
i often grump to myself more then others.
why does ppl like to Shout and Scream their grumps at others?
i think that is smth that hurts and eat one's up eventually.
i really hope i don't endup w some1 like that.
or does every male human turn into grump machines when they age?
oh help.
i think they need a therapist.. the govt shld implement such an accnt in out c/p/fs.
*
what a redundant entry~
TWENTY-10
(as i pen this, i still am floating in the holiday mood)
2009 flew pass me in a snap;
i tried to look back and wondered what have i done thru this 365 days of my life.
unfortunately i did not smile and said "i had a great year"
but i did took a deep breathe and felt that i have grown stepping into a new decade.
2009,
i remember struggling in my emotions as i step into 2009 that evening..
i struggled thru being the lil girl and growing up in daddy's eyes..
i had my fair share of fears academically,
i hit several road blocks in sight of my future,
i lived with an empty but stained picture of mine.
i fought thru my emotions and found cushions,
i held tears to myself and dried them after the rain (i am forever daddy's girl),
i was given a 2nd chance and i graduated in smiles,
i had hopes, i failed, i tried and i found, uncertainty still but i am blessed with where i am,
my picture is still empty but i breathe the air of hope :)
it has been an eventful year for me.
but it means i grew from it!
to sum up,
i am still blessed to have my F amily, F riends and God with me.
i suddenly recall the many surprises i had this year.. ;
my birthday@hm (friends&family)
my birthday blind-walk (frens)
my graduation night (sventies)
:D
i am so loved!
i recall the joy of giving, making surprises for the other,
that joy that lives. but i feel so loved to be on the receiving end this time.
you lose some, u gain some.
although my heart stood still in ache days before the year 2009 ended again,
but it was for the shortest moment, and i promise myself, it will be the last.
God, did you planned it? it hurt but if its how i look ahead, i am keeping faith.
i look forward for a Kicking Gd 2010
- ohmylicense.
- healthier pls.
- be a better child of his.
- family-ownership of an adult already.
- financially well kept
- ownership of my job.
- be more organised. life/home/work
- strike a good balance of all areas of myself
- pick up smth new! (i learnt swimming in 09)
- oh, i am creating a new photo-blog
as of my mind can think of.
bring it on 2010!
frankly..
i am dreaming of more holidays.....
:)
*
i am back Again..
but from the Clouds!
i had a jolly good time w my family...
and we had Ms Chen w us!
(i hope u enjoyed it as much as we did ya!)
HAHA.
This is Funny!
i really loved the misty/cloudy weather!
and i love my HAT!
i know, i dreamt i was in some europe country..
:D
''Jump like a energizer BunnnnnY!''
trust me, i was freezing..
i even had to slow jog to keep warmth..
HAHA.
but i'm on a holiday, i didn't care about the rest of the world! :D
that was how i spent my NewYear!
*i realised i didn't take a single photo of the Adults'' at all! aiyo..gamblers!
:(
it's back to the world of reality in 9hours~
but life is still good,
some1 said;
"we have to go back to work to earn for our next holiday"
:)
*
just when 2010 came knocking..
i accidentally locked my room inside-wards. (oh dumb)
and daddy had to 'break' some parts of it to open when mr key is unfound.
HAHA.
my dad says its a 'special" thus, must buy 4d! hahaha.
:)
happy new year world.
i have so much to say;
to do,
to confess,
to breathe,
as of now,
the air in 2010's been fine!
till then
*
