That ye may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation, among whom ye shine as lights in the world;
Holding forth the word of life; that I may rejoice in the day of Christ, that I have not run in vain, neither laboured in vain.
do we judge or do we live in faith? I don't wish to judge, but I fear upsets.
God gave me the best lesson today; I had lunch with the mean/ evil lady at work.
I hope I am being truthful enough. Can there be no games and trials? I don't wish to go through another round of aches. i live with; 心比心。 I learn life's lesson, everyday!
Tiring it is!! but im breathing and trying to count my blessings everyday.
其实、 很想叛逆的大胆放松、 无理取闹的娱乐。 遗忘那些改变不了的不快乐。 * no wonder I'm not a good girl, never a great girl esp when having no rules for anyone sake. is that even good news?!
today (yesterday) is L*Y bday. heard it fr someone. well it may be none of anyones business, or a whole bigthing for another. but frankly, I admires him, and would very much like to meet him in real person! :P
isint it amazing how one may be the greatest influence to you/ family or even the nation, while another cld mean nth to anyone!
is there anyone u'll like to meet bfr u die? is there anyone that bores u? is there anyone that keeps u excite? is there anyone that makes a diff in ur life? is there anyone that you can't live without? is there anyone you'll nvr grow sick of? is there anyone u keep? is there anyone you try not to keep?
I can be soooo random!
but there are some I'd like to keep, never grow sick of, like to meet bfr I die.
Jac said she's quite sick of the world that she wldnt mind leaving earlier. That shocked me alil. but I can understand~
random I am. it's Friday. be nice.
I'd like breakfast n going bk To bed. I'd like swimming and beer after. i'd like shivery excitement of the unexpected. I'd like to be making others happy if I could.
was told I behaved exceptionally reluctant today. indeed it's so. the little bits of cracks and felts that's flowing towards me no longer bring me fear, but brings me upsets and questions.
the loneliness of working, living and deepfelts emotions is underneath.
and all I could do is to ignore and move ahead. I truly dislike the many sights and knowns of living, selfish you call it. but it makes me feel bitter and cold.
won a physically big prize at d&d but was truly missing the part of winning. thou I had nice cheers, jokes and smelly hugs, my soul was bitter and away.
luckily i recieved alil warm coated when i got hm! dad said in his sleep " ..why didn't u ask me to pick u?.." "I won't dad, it's late"! :) but it felt really good to hear the words of love~
I thank god fr all that I have. and I bravely wanna ask god for all that I'd hope to have in his name.
I really have gitters thinking abt wrk. even more so, the imbalancememt of it. booooooooooo~ wads ideal?!
embracing growing up pains, gains and choices with time.
self routes and self views. experiences and mindsets.
all in all, individual lil story and journey.
my dear girls, I await for simpler jokes and stories. I wish for joy in all. let's encourage and embrace life growing up.
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totally Loved GOING THE DISTANCE. Love Drewberrymore! Love e frank and honest most casual and sloppy love and friendship! Love the unhidden laughing and crazy living. Love the natural setting of 2 similar ppl with a bond. Love respect and practicality coated with Love & a happy ending! :)
out of the blue willingness I had, I went with the flow, regretted right after. i still wonder wad gave me e push. how many times do I need to be reminded? thou it was alright, I still can't piece the reason I did it for. (from my perspective) grumpyly I was standing there, the sound system played a familier song. Ms kek said " life just plays tricks on you" Indeed!
why is it that ppl date around and socialise with much carefree pleasure while I sometimes/ most times find it a chore and may not appreciate goodwill and intentional giving?
I can only say, I'd like more comfort and trust skin deep. I'm an abnormal girl.
or maybe it is pms. or I've not met thee. or I'm weird.
* it's not going to be a smooth Tuesday :( *breathe*
once apon a shivered heart, one told me that he finally could understand and knew the nitty grittys of me n us.
"... your sister shared a few story of you when you were little. - Dad promised a car-ride to run some errands, he left and returned without you as you were having your nap. you wailed becus 'he promised" nth cld stop you from tears, no makeups, no apologies. till dad took you on a car-ride just around the estate. your tears stopped instant and your smile returned"
that was only one incident of "you promised"
I'll always remember that coversation because that was indeed me. i actually take ppls word fr things way deeper then they think. I can still remember a few incidents of promises brokened growing up. not that I bare grudges, I never asked fr them to be fulfilled and gets a cut in my memory of few. bcus "you promised" I know reminders cld b made but mayb becus u r not "mine" not my dad or family, I'd just let it be.
but yep, he was once mine and I tried to hint, but never did it got through and things shattered in time. but again that's one aspect of me.
I take promises to heart. but it's just kept in me, i wail no more, I ask no more.
but I still feel and I'm still the me, 三岁定八十! :P
it's a random note but bcus I've again tried to pack up promises lately.
but being older, it has became and will be easier~
months after dreading the lonely working environment, I've recently found warmth and joy with few. through the jap trip, through late hours at work, few approached and got to know me (vversa) in the strangest way :)
unfortunately, one by one is leaving me. today I rec a thankyou card n gift from one, gave a farewell hug to another, had a hearty meal with this group that I feel so right and not alone with! but I will be the last one standing in 3 weeks :(
laughed and joked of goodbyes, n ms jacq said that I'll be the only one she can't bare to leave (mayb scared I'll tarnish her fav brand :P ) but deep down I shiver. and in their eyes I felt their care and concern :)
"thou short, I'm glad I had days of joy with you that I've met.. triumphs really makes real ppl seen. thankyou "
my seemed like forever 5months of fight surely has it's smiles and silly moments knowing u all! thou in diff dept, it's such sheer blessing to get to know each other! I'm definately going to miss them! :( :( :( - this retail world is scaring me. but I wanted a piece of it. wanted"~
last humane" being standing from my "view". What happens from here?!
embracing growing up pains, gains and choices with time.
