i think this guy is really good. who ever he is. he impressed me. someway. likes his unclean voice.. that pretty imperfection-ness listening to it kind. ok, i think he has some charm too :P
This song.. oldish nice~
its another sunday.. night. a pretty different one i am having thou.
and i am seriously trying to make a decision now. YAWNS!
Didn't know i am so much of a coffee addict. Didn't know things can be so hard to simplify. humans are soooooo hard to please. why can't everyone be more spontaneous and easy going?
but i can't help but admit that the emotional relationship towards it is unexplainable.
have you finally gave me your blessings?
i have learnt that i played a huge role in the un-becoming.
this guilt and unexplainable truth. no real rights or wrongs but an unbalance-ment for the word love and giving of all the wrong expression. but we grow and learn don't we.
i know deep inside the different stories we hold.
no others would understand.
i just wondered if all else was right.
but all i asked for was blessings.
growing out of it each day.
Ms Q n Mr Y tear glans relationship
Ms F n Mr C tear glans relationship.
call us dumb.
call us fatal.
call us the every girl that wanted to give it all for once.
and we thought we did.
*
my dog is really adorable.
my dad punished her and she sat in the dog house for the longest time..
; I wonder how many things I can do within the limited time My feelings are so strog that I can't put them into words I wonder how much I can tell you You erased the pain in my heart that I always locked inside And now I can smile because you cried with me Because I 'm not alone bcause you're protecting me I can become strong, I'm not afraid of anything anymore ... Time soothes, it flows with the pain The light of the day gently shines on me The words that explain, You don 't have to force yourself to smile (No, you don't have to worry) If there is anything you need, I want you to call on me any time When you're tired, I'll lend you my shoulder No matter how.strong you are, there are times that you will sigh When the loneliness and the heavy door rise together, you can begin to move again Because you're not alone because I'm protecting you I thourht that I'd like to see your smiling face Time soothes, it flows with the pain The light of the day gently shines on you Sometimes, people hurt others while getting hurt Each of the dyed colore are different, but I will go on living While I create my own story So never , ever give up! Because you're not alone because I'm protecting you I thourht that I'd like to see your smiling face Time soothes, it flows with the pain The light of the day gently shines on us.
feel the emotions within the song just by listening to it..
on a random conversation with the closest person i have.. i spilled a tiny bit of the cracks i kept.
spilled it in the most comfortable yet bring-along-away manner.
made me feel tiny bit lighter.
Amen.
*
i really want to say the famous phrase; time flies. it flew by me like a snap. this snap went by like a flash.
i am actually lost in words of how i want to continue with this post.
i just feel this strange speed train next to me.. heading fast and looking just ahead as the smoke above it goes the other direction.. and when e train hits a stop, it stops w a loud noise and puff out plenty of other smoke.. like coughing.. like the fear of looking bk.. like glad its pit stop.. like what's next?.. like what happened previously?.. like FastForwarded..
inside the train sits plenty of lil stories.. plenty of life, joy, pain sorrow, excitement etc.. moving from place to place...
the train is on a railway track. a one way track. a single lane track.
time just flies. and i wonder how and when can i hold it tight and feel it go by with me instead..? i think i remember being able to hold onto it before.. when?
* heard this song played somewhere again this morn, i duno why i like it this much lately.
TONIGHT I CELEBRATE MY LOVE
Tonight I celebrate my love for you It seems the natural thing to do Tonight no one's gonna find us We'll leave the world behind us When I make love to you Tonight I celebrate my love for you And hope that deep inside you feel it too Tonight our spirits will be climbing To the sky lit up with diamonds When I make love to you tonight
Tonight I celebrate my love for you And that midnight song is gonna come shining through Tonight there'll be no distance between us What I want most to do Is to get close to you tonight
Tonight I celebrate my love for you And soon this old world will seem brand new Tonight we will both discover How friends turn into lovers When I make love to you
Tonight I celebrate my love for you And that midnight song is gonna come shining through Tonight there'll be no distance between us What I want most to do Is to get close to you
Tonight I celebrate my love for you
*
i hope to look forward ~
when has life become something we count and look @? and not feel and smile @.
time just doesn't stop. does it?
i secretly wanna tell u .. "time does stops" it really does.. and when it does... it maybe a best moment~
i just told a fren this; ".. god often put us in position we hate and feel worst at.. but thats where we learn the and grow most from as well.. after which, nothing seems impossible.."
was told by my angelic witch to write it down. we all need reminders don't we?
a dearest, whom i wrote this to.. 'god made u asked me when u were angry n needed to rant.. and it made me step up to encourage you.. and at the same time.. i was given a self reminder..'
HE works in the most mysterious ways! :)
*the witch says she wrote a reminder line..." some ppl are not worth it..." HAHA.
office is almost empty. they went for NDP activities, i am so enjoying my peace. i am glad i have michelle nearby. she always gives me the nicest morn smile! she just went to do wrk saying "seeu @ lunch!" i am flooded with work too~ but my mind's aflood, but the flood is the kind u see nth but water. ok, i do not know what i am blabbering about.
i am learning to not look into stuffs. because i know e heart is already different.. but i hate to have sudden swing backs into struggles and wonder why. and feel that irk. i think the positive balance is knowing he is doing well. and hopefully for the better.
it is just another phrase. i just need some warmth and assurance, i guess. but im learning to grow out of it. or maybe i just ned to cry. cry debt. bleh. wth.
or maybe just afresh mind. * michelle says that i am a "perfectionist". but i can't prove so in so many areas. but i won't deny i do have my stands to some. but maybe thats why i cldnt stand the whole other reasons once i gave in to for the better (i thought) turned against me and slap me hard, so hard i fear and shake and felt more alone and dumb then ever. so blunt i frankly fear to admit and say it out loud. so much i guess noone can understand. so overwhelming. so real. so true. yes, i should learn to face it. i shall look @ it hard, say it out loud, admit it and let it pass. but how?
again. why do i always have to have assurance? can someone. please.. * and when i thought i did well... tie me to my pillow, blanket, warmth and hit me dizzy, give me sleeping pills, let me sleep next to u.
2yrs ago, a really nice friend had no complains driving in rounds to find that ulu corner of ava to get our dogs licensed before the micro-chipping affair..
1yr ago, i rushed down like madness with his help when i overlooked the date for renewal and almost caused mybaby wynn to get micro-chipped.
