cloudy monday.
living life in a seperate body.mind.soul
being totally, not-productive in work sense.
i just need to get my butt down to get things done.
argh. dislike dangly unfinished business..
my dearest ed.t msn-ed me smth like.. " not paise.. tell ppl u got unfinished business, just go toilet n get it done la.."
:) thank god for friends!
*lunch in and sipping Strawberry yogurt drink.
my way of muse for 1hr..
Hair.
Ms Quek & i went to fix our hair today,
look @ her braces!! :P
hair fixing is like our chatting/gossip/update session~
:)
Yay! i wont have to hav fluffy hair tmr morn! (i hope)
i am,
grumpy&sleepy&unhealthy
*
i'm grumpy
.. bcus i'm really sleepy ..
:( ..teddybearhugtosleep..
23rd November 2009
today marks a new start.
i signed on the dotted line.
i received a welcome email from Hr, with information like phone ext, designation etc..
and soon after..
i hear my colleagues shouting @ me; "you new meh?"
email reply; "are you sure you are new?"
yea.
been with them for almost 5yrs +/-
maybe concrete coming in would have hit year 3.
but it will be a different phrase now.
as i anticipated so much for it,
I'm not sure why it feels less anticipated now.
wonder if its b'cus i am dead beat..
or the wait has kill the excitement~
*
looking back,
i could recall the slight struggles,
the interviews,
the hopes and dreams,
everything.
sometimes i still wonder if i made the right choice,
but i refuse to go deeper.
maybe in life at times,
we should just look ahead, afar,
breathe and smile.
i thank god for his plans for me this instance,
i thank god for making me go thru all that and learn.
i foresee a bumpy road,
i foresee great things to be done,
i wanna be hopeful.
i thank all that has encouraged and brought me thus far.
:)
meanwhile,
i await my fellow lovelies to join me aboard.
till we all feel afloat and live like we should~
do not give-up.
*
today i suddenly mention;
i hardly i could remember;
how painful it was to wakeup and sleep,
how tiring it is at the end of the day of smiles..
how aches comes and goes,
how tears washes smiles..
time flies.
it has been awhile.
thou i admit the coarse living now.
the matters of heart of the other has becum;
the under living i have.
beneath all lives the other.
living with no big hearts.
the hides, the pretends.
do not ask me no more.
i left for all good already.
what live now may just be on and off.
i am afraid its the aftermath and scars if thats what u call it.
*
i am really sleepy.
y,
muuusic before bed .again.
刺猬 By Landy 温岚
i felt my heart thumping.
i felt the itch all over.
i wanted to Speak. but i didn't.
i felt my disappointments when i hear what i share outside of meeting, or similar thoughts which hits jackpot.
why?
the kind of mornings.
(it's like story telling class)
a.
mummy & daddy in the lift. daddy with lil boy in pjs in his arms, mummy with school bag, uniform.. mummy strokes lil boy's sleepy face.. b.
kids running around @ bus stop, mummys reasoning to them.. c.
a wide smile of him at the foot of the bridge, she walks towards him.. :)
d.
She walks with sillettos, dresses in overalls, curls on hair swings, the confident and pretty frame, frowning as the train arrives, her louis vuiton bag follows after .. e.
he has ear phones on, trying to keep his low jeans in tact, smirk on face as he taps on his itouch, stood still thou crowd moves near, i bet he is thinking of after school programmes.. whats mine?
mood.
if only i knew;
;feel like i am not alone
;have that cushion.
;have that warmth,
in this cloudy sky.
*
wedding~
was @ a lovely wedding earlier.
a close ex colleague/fren's wedding..
( i sorta went alone, but met 2 other colleagues there)
all i have to sum up on the wedding dinner is how..
Relaxed this bride is!
i met her even b4 the dinner commence.. she was walking around..
and she mentioned to me ".. i didn do much to my hair... (short).." HAHA!
"cool" is the word, it was so HER...
thats my keeyun~ just without the extra alcohol :P
(KY dont slap me after reading this!)
apparently the whole affair was simple/cool/relaxed!
the music played all night was in english,chinese, hokkien, cantonese..
all her fav..
Keeyun..
you are amazing!
and it was a lovely wedding!
&
you are a HOT bride!!
smth i caught...
the walk , the aisle ..her train .. the lovely couple~
the cute wedding favour..
the 2 lil cute dolls, was the same 1 on the wedding card!
:)
KY; i wish u a blissful marriage and a beautiful life ahead my dear!
enjoy ur honeymoon @ bali!
*
a fren of the bride sang this on stage~
Dreams by Cranberries .
~really nice...
my early sunday.
Today my lovely frens made my working weekend loved.
Mr crocs and i were being spoilt,
@ late nite.. (midnite to be exact)
we explored Wessex Estate ! :D
Would love to go there in the day thou!
brunchhhh~
walking around, exploration, friends, laughter, relaxation..
thanks guys.
*
ive recently got a new not sure gd/bad habit..
putting on ear phones on one side of my ears..
listening to some songs as i fall asleep..
it gives me that lil "sound" as i fall asleep..
i am not sure if its this somewhat filled period..
i yearn the lil noise lying by myself before i welcome the next day..
how much i don't wish to think further..
like now i am listening b4 i snooze~
*
i foresee some ouch for the nxt 2 events in less then 11 hours.
yet i cnt do much but to be in it.
my baby~
but i woke up with a really WARM pillow.
there was a furry lil thing UNDER it! OMG!!!
:P
now that i have to wash the covers .. it still brings me a big smile when thought of,
my baby sneaked into my sister's room and under my pillow to sleep.
i was so dead tired i never felt anth until morning...
my baby~
and me~
*breathe*
selfish..
why are humans selfish?
why does the ppl i love always have to press my tear button?
*
actually, i am not exactly tired and worn off by work.
i can work more.
i always wanted and wished i could,
but i fear that want this instance.
but what's there to work for?
what i heard earlier made me think,
what i heard after made my heart sink.
*
no matter how hard things may be;
she just ask for ears to hear her rant.
then to the ice cream parlor for some sweets.
else a bear hug to bed.
and she will become a happy girl and smile over sunshine or rain after..
;there she was.
the happy girl.
there she was;
confused and distant.
but i still want to say thankyou.
that is just it.
she is selfish too.
*
corona with lime.
supposedly midweek
1 min of silent for the late player.
(not stating name to prevent being googled)
i thought its an amazing sight and moment, look @ that.
i felt my goose-bumps all over,
standing @ 55ft level media tribune with that kind of silence.
but it was a good kind of goose bumps.
*
i can't help but keep stopping to weigh;
my emotions, thoughts, satisfactory, vision.
i just can't stop having to think about them.
i feel the insecurities.
but i'm working it out, working hard, trying what i can.
but i still have that bit of fear, i wonder why.
wadever.
alil too stone to think futher.
it feels like i have working for ages and its friday..
but it's not.
and it will be my 2nd weekend burnt.
(more to come)
but i've just started work for 2 weeks?
Ha.
lame.
g'nitey.
*
on a side lame note..
I am so Craving for
Strawberry
ShortCake/CheeezeCake
ICE CREAM~
welcome to ScreamS.
really sleepy.
but i had to remember the kind of lesson i learnt today.
the opposite of perspectives.
the real world.
the confused mind on stand.
the 2.5hours of lecture by a boss.
i wonder what's ahead?
but i secretly agrees with his screams and anger..
jut that i do not have a solution for it.
but again, i'm in it, thus i know its harder then thought..
but effort does not equivalent to results!
*
its a weird and special kind of understanding.
hate it love it. u can name it.
i knew it. u knew it.
was it the distance traveled,
or was it the heart?
and when i thought it became smth else..
i think its on its way.
*
i am VERY SLEEEPY!!!
it feels like thurs alrdy..
im weird.
g'night world.
being a woman/girl
polka dotty addict~
Tell me its NICE , because It iS!
i am so addicted.
love the tiny neat dots on them.
love the envelopy fold @ the end.
love the semi glosssssssyness..
oh slap me.
bcus it is not exactly Buy-a-ble!
Maybe thats why i've been staring at it for tad long.
the harder to get.. the more one wanna have it.
Ho-rr- I -ble wo- M -en.
slap slap slap slap
*
理智與感情
chance upon this cantonese song~
by 陳柏宇 & 楊丞琳
遺憾到 無助到 難受到
殘酷到 到早上 很怕張開眼晴
那張臉 便逃命 和怨命
已逝去感情 早已沒生命
告別唯有 當擦亮眼晴
證實要放棄過去至找到未來
拒絕悔改 會死於愛海
掛念會美化了錯愛 永遠受害
愁在理論像哲學精彩
說易行難 無可奈
麻木過 要恭賀 得到比失去多
花開過 最想念 仍然是無花果
太自覺可憐 偏卻沒幫助
會令人永世 困在最初
就與他哭到快樂吧 也許開心過總有代價
多少失戀者仍然健在
證實要放棄過去至找到未來
拒絕悔改 會給感性所害
最可惜理論如何精彩 那寂寞如何忍耐
*
i thought its really nice.
and never thought raine could sing cantonese this well!
my sister's keeper
i enjoyed the movie, story and now i wanna read the book!
thou it was pretty predictable and not a big thing..
but the story touched my clear glands, it sure is the kind of show i like!
i thought "kate" acted really well!
read on rumors, that it was suppose to be Dakota Fanning for that role,
but she decline it when she had to shave her head.
but i thought Sofia Vassilieva acted really well!
she has that look and features that make one look at.
"kate" lived a really full life thou fighting.
i felt.
and it just makes everyone learnt that life is all about living, fighting and loving.
i think my eyes couldn't hold it further when she went thru the book she made for her family..
her love, apologies, her thanks.. my goodness!
but i couldn't remember which part of it when my sisters and i were almost fighting over tissues when i dropped a pkt and all that made me laugh! well.. they mocked @ my red nose after still. don't worry it is not a totally bitter story. its just pretty touching!
:)
oh, one area, i wished the director could have made "anna" and her mummy's relationship/love more obvious!
on also.. i thought "dad" looked realllly charming... :)
*
argh, its sunday~
