Stop&Stare
This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see
They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
What u need, what u need...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...
; Stop and Stare, One Republic
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stop. and. stare. for me today.yesterday.
*
today i learnt.
and i wished i would have learnt earlier.
but its never too late ya.
bring back that joy,
bring back that certainty.
*bring back more energy to MUG!! :P
i wonder why i'm quite chirpy @ this hR! :P
nites all.
*
btw, my Senior witch is back in SG ya?
I miss u gurl.
hope alls well and i hope to see u soon my dear!
im ok ya
exams are nearing.
its so fast that i feel it in my bones.
i am frighten, very frighten, in fact.
but i've been floating and living on some reasons that hinders my priorities.
let me read in'' . digest in''.. please.
*
we have been mugging in school, at rid-out.. :)
i see serious faces, i see streessedup faces.. and i see funny faces!
haha.
i am actually quite happy studying with them.:)
because they make me smile.
they crack jokes, they say the lamest things, they laugh and do their own thing..
and they never stop encouraging me to keep going. :)
my friends are the best!
and its most heartwarming receiving sms-s when all gets home in the morning..
i crackup as i fall asleep.
:)
tsk.
as much as i hope the examinations don't come so soon.. i hope to get over them soon as well!
ironic-llly heartfelt truth.
well today i realised "uGuys" think i'm dumb! cus u all always Trick me and crack me up!
'enjoy ur trip to shanghai'!
but.. i like =)
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swinging by the wind.
i remind myself of the wind that made me smile.
i shiver at the thought.
the thought that made me shiver.
if only.
if only i don't have my pretty picture.
i will be happier and less cold. today.
else, if only..
my life is close to that of my picture.
i will smile everyday.
if only.
i have no tears.
i need some hugs today.
i live for me. today.
overwhelming is an understatement.
i can still smile because i choose to.
i can still walk because you said u would make me follow.
i can still hope because there is still tomorrow.
my tears are dry.
my eyes no longer hurt.
i can sing and laugh.
because i choose to.
i wished i never had to choose.
i can follow my heart the way its is.
but i realised my heart is Overwhelmed...
i look forward for what's ahead.
for real.
i hope.
a passerby
sitting at school..
i saw this couple walking pass me.
both don different shades of purple and black formals..
simple and loving in a nice manner.. the cross hands when turning to the corner.. smiled and chatted.. i saw the simplest happy body language and love this morning..
they reminded me..
that love is that hardest and most beautiful thing life can bring.
don't forsake it.
*
yes it is.
and again.. it may be the heaviest stone that grows in your heart.
lighten up the stone and make it float.
is everyone entitled to seek for their own happinesss?
how many courageous hopefuls are there?
how many blessed love are found, kept and lives forever?
we all hope.
let that hope stay and grow.
*
to my dollyn;
i will always be here.
today tmr and forever!
:) wadever the road may bring, i just wanna tell u how proud i am of u.
your courage and your strength.
i believe and know that u will be that happy lucky woman.
u will..
hangon my dear!
friendshipFoundandlovingeverybitofit
stop today.
The rest of my world is away since this morning.
they had left me me much cleaning to do as well.
i'm not sure if its the lack of sleep or smth.
i feel very "off" today.
i couldnt really sleep all night.
i keep waking up.
having swirling dreams and mind just kept going.
theres this lil 'ache'
in me.
*
i told someone i was afraid yesterday.
did i do the right thing?
i tried to sleep on all the messy thoughts in me..
but i end up dreaming and thinking about them in my sleep..
i feel alil tired now.
but i'm telling myself.
exams are nearing and i shall not allow anything from making me lose thoughts about that.
its coming.
exams. graduation. the outside world for real.
everything seems to be happening so fast.
really fast.
let my mind stop for awhile.
let time stop for now.
let me stop my step.
let my heart stop beating today..
its not that i don't know.its not that i don't wanna do anth.
if i tell i'm afraid to,
and i shun from it to rid its existence.
is it a gd enough excuse?
maybe im selfish.
maybe i really am.
*
i should have said i'm sory. i really should have.
but i couldnt and didnt.
*
my mind has stopped for awhile.
*
its finally me.
tables turns.
im sorry.
:)
Lately ive been really using my time super sufficiently.
the record this semester was 3 overnites.. and i didnt sleep for 38hrs on one occassion.
:) crazy lar.
i wouldn't denie.. we realy spent alot of time doing 'redundant' things! haha..
but.. i must say.
It was really enjoyable!
the jokes, the sillyness.. the craps.. the gossip.. the tiredness.. the pimples!! haha.
it was all good! really
To: Sher, Greg, Yh, special GM guest -Walter!
U GUYS make my final semester colourful la!
"u Redundant ppl!" :P
it still brings so much smile when i have thoughts abt the moments we had u know!
esp.. poker when we need work to be done! haha. i love u few idiots! HAHA.
and to some1 else..
you really create smth for us to talk abt for the nxt 10yrs or so!
u are really the Redundant 1.
HAHA.
ohwell.. my post is alil lost. but il try to post sum lame pictures to express the LOVE we shared! :P laters.
*
smth else that caught me smiling all nite for bed yesterday.
i was @ wala with a new bunch of lovely frens.
and yesterday was silly enough.
i had a gd tym i'd say.
and it ended with them telling me how "warmth" a person i am.
what a word! hor.
but really.. it warmths my heart totally.
and they even Made a new "song" or chant... after my name! HAHAHA
super lame.
but its so funny!!
and tonite.. the fun continues..
we are going to Retro the nite away. omg, i cant imagine! help!
and i hope that i can wake up for my Sentosa trip the next day!
omg! my days are packed up.. and exams are here!
it is a promise that we are all gonna work hard to mug right after some fun!
Some'' is the word.
'to my new found and old frens of the sem.. u guys really add much joy to my busy n tiring school days! .. love u all la!"
no wonder uncle henry says he is going to miss doing projects! ha.
:)
back to my Heaps of Wrk to be cleared.
missing my dearest sventies...
and my dearest dollyn&rui..
dol, who actually pop by on one occasion with her self baked bread! such a darling u r mygdness! :P
