when i mean what i say:

my sis says god knows..

I'm exhausted.

posted by Cinds @ 8:12 PM 0 comments

recollection.

a year ago, I was running my first inhouse mini event at the former co.
theme was: halloween.
~time flies!

then I look forward for a new phase of the wrking life, and after I opt out of it.
now, I fear expectations and frontal hopes of the better.
*
I'm searching for an antidote,
the kind where it settles the mind.
I fight to wakeup in a running dream(s). after, I fight" to stay awake in the tired sleep. scarily, I jump up panting and have felts of a racing heart. but with almost no recollection of the dream.
; panadol.

TGIF.

posted by Cinds @ 9:01 AM 0 comments

i stumble upon and felt it.

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So, plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... that you really are strong, and you really do have worth~

posted by Cinds @ 12:17 AM 0 comments

regular.

posted by Cinds @ 9:56 PM 0 comments

Monday

it has been awhile since I think I meet genuinely nice humans, feel that the opposite sex is a nice and proper human to begin with and have a comfortable and enjoyable time with being just mere new acquaintance..

and u suddenly feel blessed having nice ppl around me.

it was a real surprise despite the crazy morning( & tiring weekend mind) I had a gd and peaceful tym at the studio. (minus the phonecalls) and met nice ppl, had a really nice icecream and just passed Monday..

thankful and breathing hard.
it's getting tougher~ breathe

posted by Cinds @ 9:50 PM 0 comments

the ans 6months later.

it's gonna be the last.
I know it's too early to say, but it's too much for the mind. I'm back to the kind of sleep I had, it's not what I'd like to get used to or can live with. call me a loser. I'm just not game enough.

and it's just the beginning..
hanging on for real.

posted by Cinds @ 7:45 AM 0 comments

"watched" love.

something that warmth my heart totally. It's finally tears of being touched and spills of happiness, reminders of joy and Love still existing in this worldy planet.

*

breathing so hard! be with me can you?

posted by Cinds @ 12:43 AM 0 comments

painful dread.

posted by Cinds @ 9:07 PM 0 comments

~~~

getting my hair done, listening to conversations and stories.
it makes the mind falls on others :)
like e saying; "The best way to cheer yourself up is to cheer somebody else up ..."
The best way to rest your mind, is to put it on others too!
I hope it isn't selfish when you are genuinely putting your heart to it :)

; happiness is like perfume, you can't pour onto others without getting a few drops on yourself!

like the rain that clears the dust, let time and living bring forth joy and pretty days..

I'd like to be excited like a lil girl.
rain rain go away yea~

posted by Cinds @ 6:02 PM 0 comments

the feeling of being this stress with work is killing me. it's the lone factor of project and worry of all the unknown and trust.
feel like it's a crying dream. wanna wakeup.

posted by Cinds @ 11:55 AM 0 comments

i am weird.

I'm uber sleepy yet uber awake.

posted by Cinds @ 3:01 AM 0 comments

another week.

I laid flat on the sofa right after I stepped home.. and soon after, this furry thing hop onto my thighs and stomach handing me a biscuit (heartshaped)! my sis walked out and said how much she loved my "smell" (stench) after a long day! HAHA.
tired and poping eyes but smiling and felt that simple joy lies within one's heart and mind.
work is nver gonna be joy and glamour 24/7 but it goes on and we've gotta do what we gotta do! *breathe*

TGIF!

posted by Cinds @ 8:36 AM 0 comments

I don't wish to complain but my eyes feels really tired and my minds exhausted.

sometimes I wonder if it's me or what.

... a simple meal, a warmth pickup, a fuzzy cuddle and words of coaxing will makes me feel nice.

I'm fine I'm fine. just tired.
tiredness can be fixed right?

blabbering randoms before I oooze...

posted by Cinds @ 12:06 AM 0 comments

dream [dreem]
-noun
1. a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep.

posted by Cinds @ 8:53 AM 0 comments

Simplicity.

i felt.

*

kinda like brunch.

kinda like such.

i am weird.

posted by Cinds @ 11:58 PM 0 comments

Affection.

posted by Cinds @ 12:06 AM 0 comments

sayings and thinkings...

Quote - the best way to cheer yourself up is to cheer somebody else up ...

Which I totally agree!!!! works fr me!

but, now drained n eye ach-ish, do I tire or untire another soul to feel less tired? to begin with, mydad is waiting fr me at the busstop fr a short ride home~ hur hur hur :)
ok, it's Friday tmr!

posted by Cinds @ 10:22 PM 0 comments

happy birthday mummy!

posted by Cinds @ 12:11 AM 0 comments

time.age.growingup.

debate, disagreement, arguement.

I was unsure if it's becus of my lertargic tired body or my impatience. but I am clear of the age catching up.
although it was not a fight, nor any unhappiness, it was clearly an exchange of differences and the age gap. more of a parent thingy. disagreement I shall call it.
I wanted to settled with just a remark but got pissed with the kind of comparison given and raised the obvious. I think that hurt. but that showed the aging and reminded me of respect.
I kept quiet and reminded myself of his love.

I forsee a tough growing old with such stubborness. but I know it's a cycle, like how he held grand's arm down the step with grand grumbling, but he insisted and I smiled.

aging. growing upupup.

posted by Cinds @ 11:37 PM 0 comments

girly thoughts before bed.

posted by Cinds @ 11:52 PM 0 comments

weekend. Flower Edition.

posted by Cinds @ 10:36 PM 0 comments

Sunday morning~

rise & shine~

posted by Cinds @ 9:14 AM 0 comments

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为什么会那么想要被＂聊＂醒？

posted by Cinds @ 11:52 AM 0 comments

life's little things..

sitting by e bus stop at orchard on a weekday morning. feels extremely sane.
had an hr of outer-space meeting but felt fine. god's lil lesson hit me right when I stepped into the room. I took a deep breathe and wanted to do better. which u knew I cld. shaking it off. I reminded myself, descipline and self awareness.

*
read so many stories, eulogy, watch videos, hear I interviews... of the late mrs lee. I'm filled with awe and respect. as much of a patriotic girl in red. I smile at their love with such respectable life and status. if I were to name, il write a essay!

".. I was the centre of her life.." how many woman cld find the worthy of such?
indeed he was, and it kept her hanging on the extra years.
He is proud of her, he talks about her goodness and great heart and being his Love. never ashamed, never ungrateful, always in awe and in trust allows 2 person this intelligent and successful lived life this full and meaningful. finally his pain to see her go.

yearning to be someone's confident and trust. not afraid to shape and grow old through triumphs. centre of each others lives.

but that's like finding THE perfect match right? hmmm... but there is no perfection. only a heart that contains imperfection.
that heart. it is.

Friday!

posted by Cinds @ 11:31 AM 0 comments

love that song

posted by Cinds @ 11:32 AM 0 comments

s.duper random

- it's world animal day today.
- had like a queasy stomach moment.
- recieved a pat and Thankyou and kept my complains.
- read bits & pieces of the late lady and feels fuzzy warmth.
- had slight stitches after sipping tomyum being super hungry.
- feels like thursday.
- refuse to think about why's.
- I'd really like to check duxt.'s sunset out.. joseph's pictures are stuck in my
mind!
- swimmming swiimmming, really enjoy it. i think it's the best sport I ever learnt! (ok cycling's gd too)

i'm mad.

posted by Cinds @ 10:46 PM 0 comments

random.

posted by Cinds @ 9:53 PM 0 comments

time. memories.

saw and remembered. somethings are just amazing.

I can forget my towel, my goggles when I left hm fr swimming. but yet I can remember the lady that sells kuehTuTu and the relationship of stories.

this "brain" is amazing.
-
Saturday feels like Sunday.
and as grump" was setting in, many warmth floods in. growing up~
:)

posted by Cinds @ 5:43 PM 0 comments

relent-ly I am,
for all things I feel, I face, I'm given, I know of..

example; when my new colleague told me today - "... we are going to die anyway, it's just the matter of when..."
-

relent says the mind. to the heart. to the soul.

looking far and beyond. for God's plans. I shouldn't question. breathe.

posted by Cinds @ 1:06 AM 0 comments