the Political and so not political me
Have u heard of office politics?
i gues ive gone thru afair share of those 'spicy' ones 'cannot tahan' ones..
but u know wad.. ive grown so tired of trying to live with them.
i once left because i see no meaning in trying to tolerate n pretend there is none..
but finally when i thought i've found something i enjoyinh working @ theres more then its seems,
Office Politics! i was telling my girlfren.
is it our character to not able to stand some ppl's no-sense-of-agency job attitude?or is it that in this world there are sum bimbos n moron that just love working w no sense of responsibility?*i ponder*anyway.
i m losing much n yet im trying hard.
Politics~how hard is it to live out of it?or is it better to live in it?my goodness its a mind wretching turmoil inside.like wads the common phrase. 'u cant please evryone'yes. and ive decided.. i shall just please myself n work for myself, haha if i could. but still put on a good show i tell ya.always be Ms neutral.. until u r losing.. then disappear!!! haha IDEA?im trying real HARd. my lunch tyms havent been this exciting!ok i'm also sneaking @ wrk to write this..
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For the outside not so political me :
loves to drem. YES!
while me n my best bud jsut love to drem about....
OUR future lives.
THose free n easy life.
checklist:
MARRIed -
yesChildren -
yesJOB -
yesA HOUSE -
yes6 digit in my bank -
i drem! hhaanyway, here it goes...
that life of ours when i drive my hubby and kids to work and school ( he can have the wheel until his work place) i'm a part tym house wife who freelances 3days a week - (like the show URS. MINE, OURS).. i shall save the details.. anyway.. we'll have fridays with dinner with frens n familY...(e.g my buddy stay next door w her family n kids....) we can have combi BBQ, Steamboat... n help take care of each others' Kids!!! n guess wad.. imagine us
woman preparing food and kids.. while u see the
man chatting and chilling @ the yard about Politics/Football/WAR/business!!!! - i'd so love that.!
the dremmy details goes on.... but i shall not continue! haha
how silly.
but it lifted my mood....
:)
to be continued. . . . . .
ah Choo..
wad a weds.
i start my week today.
most of you must be saying how lucky i am heh'
but its not exactly it.
feeling quite uncomfy.'
sneezing n slept w a painful block nose!
spent my last two days keeping 2 ppl i love of much company... but i duno y it tires me out quite abit!
din get to sleep til late though the 2days of leave. *sob*sob*.
but i guess y im freezing now, n y e uncomfy is due to PMS. ARgh. y b a woman?
toking of such...
man & woman.
just got to know that a fren o mine n his gf brokeup.
nt e best news either.
he was one of the sweetest guys i know.
not that i saw their relationship but..
listen to this..
- he once sms me about ideas of places for vday.. with themes, romantic ambience,
he has his ideas... like local/60s kind etc.. he would ask me as a gurl for suggestions of ideas.
-he was to go away for a NS training.. n he asked is i knew where he could order flowers to be sent to his gf's place.. a stalk per day till he returns..
-when he was courting her, he often ask for romantic spots w ideas i never tot would imagine a guy woulf think of...
*but i guess all good things comes to an end???* ok, its sstupid link.
but anyways..
"ah Chooo"
"ah Choo"
gtg.
wrk ends @ 9++ great.
waiting can be as painful.
today meant to be a special day...
but i'm stil waiting....
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i took urgent leave despite the many resposibilities i had @ work.
but coz its for my sis..
my tots..:
though im not a Doc or Nurse but i really feel that im so so not sensitive in words towards ppl i close to.. i mean more of the 'family' kind .. when they are ill..
( i tnk im so used to being the baby)
Often when my sis or him gets ill.. im lost in words.. how weird,
whereas when my frens are ill , i easily say soothing words to coax or comfort them...
(maybe bcoz @ hm i know my mum n dad will take gd cre o them n ive been the baby... n mayb i get embarrass for such!! *Weirdy me*)
@ the polyclinic's morning is such a uncomfy feeling.
but i guess i have to understand its the most reasonable priced ...
it got frightening and trembly to a point when i was being put in a spot of listening to the narration on the doctor to my sis...
anyway...
we waiting for 4hrs pluss.
But after such scary news.. the results was not so bad.. n we did get the refferal we wanted!
*prayers for my sis* -
her strong faith and believe was there for me to see... thumbs up da jiesitting around n fixxing up stuffs sure is another pain...
the waiting im holding is getting unbearable..
but i still have to.
if someone could ans me...
why does waiting feel this
bad?is it because of the uncertainty?
the insecurities?
the fear and the emptiness?
i bet so.
i know it all but i couldnt get rid of such!
hmph
have been in such rush rush all week...
n felt pretty unhappi about my ability in the arty side -
yes ger. i really deprove in suchduno y.
the laze, the rush... or mayb...
i duno.
the environment. n my in-ability.
u know wad?
i just cant write on!
its very bloat-y!!!
n my eyes keep moving towards my hp...
i really hope thers no disappointments today!
*ger be it the not-so-gd pic bk, i really spent the nite fixing n improving it!...n i made letters n wrap all the presents.. n made it cheekily fun in putting the prezs inbetween... i really did....*- everyone close to me... please keep 24th june avail... 4 me...
i did msg afew today....
dun ask y.. its gets embarrassed to announce it here.. but its my special day..
that day is JJ's concert... *hint* but i wan that day.. so dun plan any concerts!!!
:P
mylove
- i wanna share about the story of
Joan on ST LIFE on sunday.... :)
someone's watching over me.
Found myself todayOh I found myself and ran awaySomething pulled me backThe voice of reason I forgot I hadAll I know is just you're not here to sayWhat you always used to sayBut it's written in the sky tonightSo I won't give upNo I won't break downSooner than it seems life turns aroundAnd I will be strong Even if it all goes wrongWhen I'm standing in the dark I'll still believeSomeone's watching over meSeen that ray of lightAnd it's shining on my destinyShining all the timeAnd I wont be afraidTo follow everywhere it's taking meAll I know is yesterday is goneAnd right now I belongTook this moment to my dreamsSo I won't give upNo I won't break downSooner than it seems life turns aroundAnd I will be strong Even if it all goes wrongWhen I'm standing in the dark I'll still believeSomeone's watching over meIt doesn't matter what people sayAnd it doesn't matter how long it takesBelieve in yourself and you'll fly highAnd it only matters how true you areBe true to yourself and follow your heartSo I won't give upNo I won't break downSooner than it seems life turns aroundAnd I will be strong Even if it all goes wrongWhen I'm standing in the dark I'll still believeThat I won't give upNo I won't break downSooner than it seems life turns aroundAnd I will be strong Even when it all goes wrongWhen I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe That someone's watching overSomeone's watching overSomeone's watching over meSomeone's watching over me-Someone's Watching Over Me, by Hilary duff
- a movie made so simple and the lyrics made so simple... but i enjoyed it..
enjoyed it with u...
mylove,
cinds'
movie me...
The 19th Singapore Film Festival is here :) went to get sum tix with my colleage few wks ago.. stil thinking abt it.. how nice it'll be if we share this in common... But i'll love to catch sum of the shows!!.. hmph!
glimpse :
It’s Only TalkThree lovers – three different identities. Yuko is 35, single, unemployed, manic-depressive and divides her time between a variety of men - her university friend, a self-confessed pervert, a manic-depressive gangster, her cousin, who is separated from his wife and dumped by his lover. Ryuichi Hiroki explores the essence of “being alive” and “continuing to live” in this tragi-comedy.
often such attraction in its print Ad ( which leads me to this) often doesnt promise nice plots. - i shall not judge :) but stil.. dnt we just love the print ad ppl...nicenice.. itnk i love this ad.
A Ballad For My Son
International Premiere
Elad and Daniel have turned 18 and are about to be drafted into the Israeli army. They believe they each have made the right decision. Daniel is willing to sacrifice his freedom and Elad his life. As much as the film deals with difficult choices that confront young Israelis today, it is also the story of a people who are still beset by insecurity, guilt and fear, searching for solutions and identity.
Director: Tzipi Trope Country: Israel Duration:80min
Short Films About The Tsunami
Nine soul searching short films by 10 leading experimental artists and video/filmmakers are showcased in this feature. The project is part of Thailand’s tsunami memorial and headed by Thailand’s reputed experimental filmmaker Apichatpong Weerasethakul. The programme is about loss and resurrection and how it has affected lives following the tragedy. The films build eerily on the unexpected that unfolds on that fateful day. Anger is also voiced for the lack of initiative taken to lessen the catastrophe. Apichatpong WeerasethakulChristelle IheureuxPipope PanitchpakdiThunska PansittivorakulPramote SangsornSomkid ThamniamdiLek ManontSonthaya SubyenMargaret Bong Chew JenPimpaka Towira
Director: Various Country:Thailand Duration:114min
The Burnt Theatre
Rithy Panh continues his exploration of Cambodia in The Burnt Theatre, after S-21 Khmer Rouge Killing Machine (SIFF 2004) and The People of Angkor (SIFF 2005) Preah Suramarith, once a national monument for the performing arts in Cambodia, embodies its culture. When an accidental fire broke out, the theatre burned down. Its edifice is symbolic of performing artistes in Cambodia who are also on the verge of becoming extinct. Panh follows a group of five artistes in their search for a form of expression and the theatre symbolic of their plight.
Director:Rithy Panh Country:Cambodia / France Duration: 90min
So many cool ones ya.. the list goes on..
esp for opening ang closing films..the the one from Royston...
till ltr :) knocking off w smiles.
dReam.
watching Stef Sun on tv now.. : she said:" ...man do not
smth his destiny...we have them in our hands...." smth like that.. haha.. but it just meant that we hold our destiny in our hands :P and
:she add abt trust n faith inmany things...
:she also add abt..losing n gaining things...
:every point we all lose n gain things...
:About having the drive and thoughts in ur job... then u'll succeed
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it was a great night of movie n smiles.
i got alil over.. i guess my mood's tip top lately..
but im so afraid it mislead by independence...
its not ok.. its hard to explain. but i do wonder...
i luffed into it.. i saw her smiling..
others cuddle in luff into the mood..
the beauty of living in the movie.
i often say if im able to live that 2hrs out of my reality n into the show, it means this show has suceeded.. but today i realise not.
i felt that because only dreamers like me easily hope n dream for escaping from our
real world thats y, but stil i salute filmakers, storytellers,screemwritters n ofcos actors & actresses....
i once dreamt of being part of such extrodinary ppl... but uep i did dreamt n step alil closer..thats just it.
the movie had drems , hopes n it reminded us again of being not afraid of stepping out of your space n drem
(i know i repeated the DREAM word so so many tyms) but i liked the simplicty of the show for its not so huge ending w big achievements n rewards but jus the kind of satisfaction we see from the ACTOR. Yup.. a point ive learnt to understood...
thats y i tnk it was nice! wad more i shared it w my movie kaki.
u know how important it is when u get so excited n smie so hard n when u turn to e person nxt to u..she get it... THats the *Ding* n u just keep smiling.. so gurl. u played a huge part in my hapii luffing moments just now!
- i smile til a point she asked me.. " y u keep smiling nonstop?!!" hhaha
yep!
love Ya gurl..
im so hardworking hor.. blog n write.. such a gd gurL..
but my sis just step in n said :" y ar u make until e room so messy?".. oops.
till then,,
cheers for the happi-ness i had.
i loved ur perky voice.i tot u did well telling me...u improved mylove. to me..thats so impt.n u showed more then just love but plenty of concern n understanding, sensitivity towards me.deep down i stil hope my mind would leave the past n stop worrying for nothing.i shall keep my mind @ e new U. e new Us.. n have faith n trust :)u wont disappoint me right..i wont too."to realise is smth i learnt that allows ur mind to drift further n ur hart to feel closer" - confused me.. mylove
*blush*
this is the most romantic picture...
*my imaginations running wild*
saw this on sum1's photopages titled : marry me @ east coast park smth...
can u feel the romantic-ness now....
:)
-i had to do this in e midst of work-
mylove
pretty mood *
such a pretty flower.. like my mood now..
till ltr *wink*
"...homes are for free expressions, not good impression"
a yr odd from my previous post. amazing how tym flies...
but i had to cum back ya, wanted to do this on exactly that 1 yr. but i couldnt recall my password. ironic.
:)
my weekend was a blast. n ive got so much to share.. im so Filled in all swell up!! :)
i'm going backwards ya..
"...homes are for free expressions, not good impression" -
taken from the movies, Urs,Mine,OursSo lurve it.
we sat by the sofa all tired,hungry,dirty,n just smiley.
we decided we should watch the show we got last minute for yest's stayover movie which we din catch but slept!! ha. n we did.
Dad on the stool,me n sue on e left sofa lying against each other. angie on her back with grace on the right sofa n mum... washing the clothes..n ofcus wynn wynn lazying near us.
We laughed ,smiled, sum teared, screm n ask qs...got interupted n finished the whole movie. it was
great. :)
Now mum n dad's snoring w the TV on, sue sleeping e the radio on, angie fell asleep @ the sofa w wynn while waiting for her turn to shower and w her com on! grace left to meet her hubby.
y the fullfillment?
We went as a family to JB. just for a short trip. but despite all the trouble.
mum,angie,sue n me went up 1st on fri. b4 that mum n dad just pick up their new passports...there was a que bt we were so determined to wait...sue fell while we were @ the place...then dad had to return to work ...but in the end Kevin drove us in to check in @
Compact Hotel. We booked a Exec Suite ROOM!!! woohoo. then sue return for a meeting midway leaving me, mum n angie...but later the nite, Mike drove dad,sue n grace in to join us for dinner! yippee... WE shop till we dropped, took taxi to other malls, bought so much rubbish. but we did it all together!
Mike,dad,sue,grace n me then went to the nite market to pack food!
We bought
BBq stingray,fried oyster,fried kway tiao,chilly veg,satay,soya bean,chin chow, or did i mentioned we alrdy got a 9pc kfc buket back @ e hotel?? n we had sum add ons of soup
tulang & mee maggie while waiting for the satay!! i drank a COconut! We then tried grabing a cheap dvd on our way bk for our nite movie,
Urs,mine Ours!Went back filled up the tables w food n We dug in!!!!! yummy! hahha.. it was crazy.. but so FUN.
the suite had a living room,bed room n dining area. we all
yep,eat&screm n watch Tv all the way... it was alrdy midnite by then! ha.. i even got to parade the new clothes i got b4 slep tym!
then mike left w dad's car bk to spore. Dad,mum,angie n i brokeup the king size bed n made it into a huge mattress which the 5of us gers slept n dad slept on the sofa! haha... amazing..
Nxt morn, mum n dad went for the brekfast provided w me sleeping n the rest taking turns to bathe n get ready. grace n sue even went to pack roti prata 4 us..i slept all e way til brekfast was back! ate n pack up! then we all headed to City Plaza again. sue n grace had to buy sum stuff while i wanted my pedicure - which i didn. in the end we just acc each other to buy stuff n snaked all the way... @ 1pm we headed bk to check out n headed hm! :D
- e thing is, i love the way we all pickup shoes for grace to try when she needed a pair, we all chose for ue when she had to get a prez, we all took out 10bucks for dad's ginseng chicken when he was bored, we boought junk for frens n ppl arnd us, every1 pocket $ when i saw smth i tot jj would like, mum cleared up the shelf of peanut candy for our frens and we all just did wad we want despite the tigt-neess in our pockets! did i meantion they all walked me to e pedicure place ? they so not encourage but they so bring me there..n so give me $... hahah... coz i spent mine completely! ha. thats the most amazing feeling u know! i love my family. realy so much so much.
love the chin-a-ness, the poor-i-part, the nois-ey-ness, the carefree-ness n the tightNess!!!
thats LIFE. thats a FREE EXPRESSION way of life! i say!
yup. love is filled in me now.
last fri was stan's bday bbq.
its was a silly carefree one. not so party-y but it was ok. really
it was one that we all just tried to put ourselves back to the past. so hard. but we tried. so to me...it was very good le.
i loved the nite drove. the exploration ride. so so us! all that covered my lil anger w the ugliness of
boy-dirt - dun ask me wad is that! haahha its my meterphor!!!!haha
midway he called. it was a call i waited for so long. but the feeling was great
i missed him. but i was enjoying.
but i hoped he know wads that. i enjoyed for that n i still miss him for that. its 2 differet things.
i really do hope.
like as im writing im thinking of many things n thinking of him.. to me thats me.
i'll always have that space for love while my hart holds every other thing too...
- is it right?
i hope i am.. but its just me.
im writing so much n babbling like crazy.. bcoz im so so filled w feelings! ha
i just so love my heart now... im so so CRAZY! aaaaahhhh....
life is just like this.
u live, u learn, u experience, u feel...n in e end u have to smile.
hor?
ha
im gonna end bcoz ive babble to much.. but i had to do this coz im afraid i will forget this so happi moment..
im off to pen my missses to him.
if u ever get to read this. i hope u smile n hear urself smiling.. n not ur hart asking.i love me.
