i couldn't sleep having this song playing in my mind...
Don't stray, don't ever go away I should be much too smart for this You know it gets the better of me Sometimes, when you and I collide I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time Don't let me drown, let me down I say it's all because of you And here I go, losing my control I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye Let all the things you mean to me Come tumbling out my mouth Indeed it's time to tell you why I say it's infinitely true
[CHORUS:] Say you'll stay, don't come and go Like you do Sway my way, yeah I need to know All about you
And there's no cure, and no way to be sure Why everything's turned inside out Instilling so much doubt It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired My head is battling with my heart My logic has been torn apart And now it all turns sour Come sweeten every afternoon
[CHORUS TWICE]
It's all because of you It's all because of you
Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon It's time to tell you why, I say it's infinitely true
[CHORUS TWICE]
It's all because of you It's all because of you It's all because of you
i think women has this awfully amazing flickering mood and thoughts swings. they often allows it to over rule their instant mind. (it may apply to men too) ok, maybe all humans. but maybe women can be more extreme. but on saying that, they can be really good at compressing them as well. i could say thats alil on choice and directions kind of thing.
im not sure where my entry gonna lead to.
but hearing so much and knowing alil more.. feeling more too. it definitely makes my mind wonder. i guess its alot alot of different routes and ways. for everyone. for every individual. no one will know what leads to where.
my position today is weird. i look into it from a different perspective today. and i realised a lot. felt more. found out more too. my advise was different as well.
now i understand better. from the outside; today.
hope alls well.
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ms kek says: 因为爱太痛了..
and i agreed.. but she says.. "not i say.. wu ke qun say one"
HAHA. that gurL
then....
x i n y a n ** 因为爱太痛了 says: ther's this line tt says "我痛到快死了
x i n y a n ** 因为爱太痛了 says: i think he got gastric. hahaha
she was talking about the SONG! :P
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Its another week. cny is coming.. i am breathing more lately. breathing with more strength i wld say. and. i am packing... shelving.. everything. i can. bcus its cny.
i had a gOoood tym with my noisy family at chinatown.
we didnt really shop into the middle, crowded area..
but we just moved about, ate, 'see-look' see-look'!
it seems like a long long tym since we all sat in my dad's car, going out and eating, laughing and chatting all the way already.. i wonder why!?!
I Love it very much! i think its one of the most important and enjoyable time we always have and do as a family... all that noise! all the pinching of food! all that lame jokes! all that blaming and complaining about each other! all that traveling and messing up dad's already so very messy car... and of course.. all the squeezing..
(yes, our fat butts are warning us about our weight)
:) its my kind of Joy~
i think it's "family-in-car-bonding" :P
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yesterday was great too..
though i made the silliest 2009 Mistake! (up till today), (to start the day)
but i think my day was well used! Hahaha.
i had a wonderful time from Morning..
to the Afternoon.. till the Night.. n all the way till DAWN! :P
(but if that lil tummy gastric wasnt disturbing me.. it would have been better)
but well, nth is perfect.. that lil imperfection just sums up my great tym!
Thanking my companieS here .. :)
my dear yh's bday really showed me once again of the great love and friendship around us, from our bunch of new frens. i'd say old alrdy! (w the amount of tym spent lately.HA)
its just really really warm.. and irritatingly enjoyable..
i know u felt it gurl. and i am so happy for u :) i am happy tooo :)
and ofcus, through it all.. both of us can smile over all things yea~
loving every bit of things now..
i'd have to say.. im glad to smile now and cover off those less smiley days alrdy..
a friend quoted my complains and anger off my entry.
yes i have so much upsets and complains lately..
i don't like to carry it with me, when i have fun.. work or play..
i shelf them.. well kept and hidden...
maybe blogging is 1 of the only way i expresses my upsets..
and to not many would have know that i do throw some tantrums towards my family members..
i feel really guilty about it... today.
of course i do not shout n scream..
but i'll get grouchy when asked about stuffs... and becomes less bubbly and just sleeep sleep and sleeeep in...
just now.
i feel so guilty about it.
about my grouchy self.
towards them.
my family.
my daddy.
it has been some time since since i sat next to him in the car and just update him about my life,my frens.. ask him about his, about the things on the road, on the radio..
today i finally did.
he asked me stuffs.. but i turned alil grouchy,
i thought he was being insensitive.
i thought.
i thought no1 understands, i thought he is angry with me and saying all that is to lecture me..
i thought.
i thought he has lost the faith and trust in me.
i thought.
but i was wrong.
when the ride was about to end,
it was me n him left in the car,
and he just said.. to me..
"i put aside the $, u just tell me..."
he said that with no anger, no grouch, no upsets.
no questions asked.
now i know, he was not blaming or questioning..
but just worried and for his daddy's knowledge...
daddy's no rich man.
i have learnt from him to earn my keep, earn my spend.
and trust me, i do enjoy doing it since..
but i know if daddy has only $10, he will give me $10 if i need it.
i promised to earn my spend since then.. and when i thought i will never have to ask for more .. i ended here again...
i promise this time i will not just earn my spend ..
i remember when Timmy!'s was singing on the stage with that smile and that great joy performing together as a band! they make it all brandnew.
Why do i love live bands? because the re-creates a new mood and meaning to each song, their way. and i love seeing the individuals of the band exchange glances and just play their own thing as one. :)
its more then enjoyable.
"the bond that is created between people from what they enjoy doing"
: i look in envy when enjoying the performance all the time..
i wrote this afew days ago. but i didnt post it. -
i thank you for loving me.
i thank you for caring me.
i thank you for letting me stay silly.
i thank you for letting me smile this long.
i thank you for letting me know i am not alone.
i thank you for letting me dry my tears and walk down with hope.
i thank God for letting me have more then one YOU in my life! :)
its you, you, you and you.
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i've learnt my lesson, l had my share of pain, i've learnt that my hope is still around as long as i want it. i only can blame myself. for not just this but for all. because i hold my life in my hands. so i shall hold it tight. real tight this time.
i will. because i know i have to.
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i woke up with a lot of things floating in my mind.
