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Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
Isaiah 41:10
And i thought this is how it should be.. No?
I can't imagine if I were to love someone so much to wanna spend my life with, and yet he is not my best friend.
Someone says that's the ideal.
But I feel that it's the only way you can grow old with someone.
Because when your hair is grey, and skin wrinkled.
Only your best friend will nag and laugh at your old and haggard look, but still rub your wrinkled face, hold that wrinkled hand and walk with you to pickup up something u left out because of your failed memory..
Right?
Adulthood. Emotional buildup.
This growing up phase lately has planted many tear glans in me.
I am easily made to cry.
Especially being alone.
I wakeup in shock and feeling sappy all over. I started to tear. But the next moment I am sleeping like a baby.
I receive words of harsh comments and insensitive remarks, I feel tears standing by my eye lids. But next moment and breath swallow them up and could smile.
I write now with much emotions, I think I can cry too. But I won't, instead I could write and comfort myself thinking that everything will be alright.. How bad can things get?!
I forgot to mentioned that, it's also planted much muscles to hold my tears up!
Growing up seems to be getting my emotions up and moving!
Was it that long ago since i graduated?
Yes, it doesn't feel that it was that long ago that I received this bear n since have him with me by my bed...
But on the other hand, it feels like it's been a long long time, so long that I'm exhausted.
Where's the next pitstop?
Where's the next finishing point?
Will there be a next "graduation"? Or "celebration"?
This "race" seems to get longer and longer.
12hr race
Kind of exhausted until I'm wide awake.
Ouch.
Say it then.
" .. never leave things unsaid..." - combat hospital (trung said after suzy's passing)
Something that caught me thinking.
I felt a sudden chilliness hearing one of my prev teacher's passing as well. I know there's so much I wanted to thank him for and tell him what his little ways has brought me this far. I guess it's smth really clear in my mind yet extremely far away.
I learnt that;
I should have said what I wanted then.
Things wouldn't matter if it's said after a long time.
Like what Trung said "... Never leave things unsaid.."
If only.
Oh gloomy sat.
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-dentist pitstop today too-
