Dad!
- pardon the unglam, mum alr force-comb his hair! Haha.
"...daddy 笑 properly ..."
"... 大胆.. Call your Father 'siao' ..."
HAHA.
The old man turns a year older. Comes with it more grumps and annoyance (remembers the irritating qs he asks throughout my tv programme out of his era) :) and more Love Ofcourse. (patience training that is!) haha!
Happy Birthday Daddy!
Teveeee
The thing I like about Grey's;
It has the most messedup relationships, situations and yet they do and accomplish the best of things (in the show context)
And Ofcourse we get to see happy endings ...
Today it ended with some "...trauma, Life's ... is what that makes us move on..."
Someone got engaged, another broke up, and forgave, regretted, died, loved or saw light. Everything. Anything, everywhere.
The story just intrigues and amazes me. I enjoy watching it with the strangest felts.
Maybe because; I am messedup too.
My Bos* asked ...
"... Do you feel like a superwoman today?"
I shall take it as a compliment. Poooof!
A message.
A Pure HeartA pure heart, that's what I long for.
A heart that follows hard after Thee;
A pure heart, that's what I long for.
A heart that follows hard after Thee.
VERSE:
A heart that hides Your Word
So that sin will not come in.
A heart that's undivided
But one You rule and reign;
A heart that beats compassion,
That pleases You, my Lord.
A sweet aroma of worship
That rises to Your throne.
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This song came tapping on me this morning, as I felt and wanted to wail along with it, I am piecing up his word for me.
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Verses of message
And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God - Romans 2:12
:)
Came across this on a fren's web. He makes wedding vids. And he says this verse is so beautiful that it edifies him from within. I couldn't Agee more!
“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” 1 John 4:18
;The perfect love.
Is it brave, honorable, respectful and in grace.
Drives out fear, jealousy and anger?
my lil red-book's clothe.
Today i received a parcel,
I bought alil something for the red-book.
and I hope it brings me to the lil Tower above someday...
Also today,
i just added another place in the globe that i'd like to go.
Cape of Good Hope (South Africa)
; like what is written above..
If i could have the opportunity to built memories of Joy and Love traveling and enjoying God's creations..
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i was reading an article from a mag;
"Is it ever Ok to Give Up"
it talked about the cultural reasons why we asian woman (human)
finds it hard to throw in the towel.
The word Determination was discussed alongside Stubbornness.
We often try not to submit to 'walking away', it seems like the
most un-brave choice most of the time.
Well, this read just reminded me that 'walking away'
may sometimes be the most courageous motion one could do and gain from it.
but when will we know it is the right time?
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Stuff
Do we all have feelings left somewhere too deep and far to be brave, or is it just U/me?
Do we all need to learn to uncross the heart inorder to learn the motion?
Do we always have to tell ourselves to live like the movies to believe in love and fairytales?
*I read tooo much pretty and emotional stuff.
I'm a woooman.
I'm in trouble
So much stuff.
All alone.
Yet I skipped work.
I think I still love myself more then I love my job.
ok,
i can't imagine sitting in the office fretting over work and a headache.
My lil joy..
Freshly done!
I really like this picture.
Love the pastel colours fading into the shade here.. Love the worn out ribbon over my glittery other ribbon :)
I'm trying to stretch my dollar or you can say I'm trying to keep my fingers pretty for awhile!
I bought a hair-washing brush!!! :P
I am a girly girl at times.
Just sometimes :)
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Control
The other day, I wrote a pretty lengthy post for someone I'd like to spill out to. I admit I was probably in the midst of an anger or grump management phase.
Nonetheless, I felt alil better writing it out! (Felt like old times)
Then being in the may-not, may-never, should-not mode of posting/sending it out...
one touch of the button and. THE POST WAS GONE. It just wasn't captured.
Amazingly, gone with is was also my 50% anger and all I felt was this tired feeling all over.
I did question if it was meant to be. (there could never be a meant to be). But I had no more energy to wanna rant out and have some lost of memory on the words I first used.
Tiredness was what that triggered all.
Again, I'm reminded how I should be in control of my life. (even there are times when u can't control machines..)
insanity . sanity
A woman's heart, mind and thoughts every other minute.
Is scary.
Sometimes, I am afraid of my own thoughts and felts.
Other times, I fear sights and felts of what others have expressed.
*
The smelliest furniture
The sofa;
apparently is enjoyed by everyone after a long day of day out "smells". We lay there (with the dog) and watch teevee, gossip and irritate the dog (like above).
Often we would fall asleep on it...
But when night falls, after we are clean and nice smelling, the sofa becomes less crowded.. And occasionally the dog or a sleepless fella would be there.
The sofa sure wins the throne of being the smelliest furniture in the house!!!
Er, guests are usually welcomed by it too (scent?).
Haha. Night.
I choose.
Smiles and Anger is just next door.
Never knew. Never have. Never did....
... learnt when is right...
- took off a fren's find
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Matthew 19:26
But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.
I am trying..
to control the mind.
You can't imagine how this running mind results in the making of the long nights of dreams.
to stay in place.
You can't turn back. But you know you can't forgo it yet. You just know you should adjust it; staying.
to not let emotions rule.
Women we are. Thus we should know our emotions well enough to keep it discipline.
to find that smile.
Everyday.
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I am just trying to not complain and wail that I am exhausted. I'm tired just Trying to be well.
Split moment.
I was awaken buy the honk and sudden brake of the car. I admit I had a moment of fear and for that instance nothing seems more important then to be able to be safe. My mind went blank and my I heard heart alil.
I lay on my bed now and it just came into picture of what has happened and could have happened.
It felt like a bad dream.
But I'm all glad it's nth. But it truly took my heart and mind off the rest of the world of nitty gritty...
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nights
