I suddenly realized what I truly need. It's not going to be easy.
In fact, it's tougher then it could have been. Fear. But I'm walking on as it's beyond and way too late.
* Also, i need to visit the dentist. One of my biggest fear... :( Where's daddy? Each time I go to the dentist, my dad would bring or fetch me... But he is away.. Now I feel like a baby... Is there a daddy-rental service?!
I feel that I need more then what's been around. I've been trying, but i don't know why it seems like it's getting tougher. Shouldn't things improve and get better? Why the backward?
Caught A little bit of heaven last night.. (not forgetting the mistake of buying the wrong movie tickets but yet just watching it! :P)
It was a nice show, with heartache, tear drops and heartfelt smiles..
It's encouragement and lotsa reminders.. I love that she ended her life experiencing all that she wanted.. Forgiveness, relationships, love.. And she insisted on a funeral with the FUN from the FUNERAL!! gettit? Haha! It was lovely...
Sudden thought, if I were to die.. Let there be red tulips, some polka dots, desserts and a celebration.. I'd wished I've lived a life worth celebrating for! :)
I'm extremely encouraged.. I shall choose to let go of all the bitterness from my tiny-dreadful part of my life (myjob)
Taken from a blog post where she wrote of "letting go".. And quoted from a book.
"Our greatest strength isn't our ability to imagine brighter days ahead, it is that we are empowered - in every present moment – to effortlessly dismiss any dark thought or feeling that, left unattended, diminishes our happiness"
Over lunch we joked and teased about age, there was a 19 year old lady that just came onboard!. Today (Friday) apparently was her happiest day of the week! Because her Bf is in the army (@tekong).
Kind of made me smile I felt like "... was it that long ago?!!!!..."
"... It is ok not to take up the opportunity..." ".. It is only an opportunity if it brings u one step closer to wad u truly love.."
原来、有时候。 放弃也是一种会让你感到轻松的决定。 一种勇气、一种新期望。
It now seems like a gain somehow.
I am truly glad I had close ones that seemed to see what's in me, not that they gave me opinions but instead they waited for me to make them and gave me comfort. How often you have such mates close to your soul. I'm thankful :)
Now, to take pride and less grief in the current before a real opportunity comes along! "Hush now" says one! :)
Am hooked on Combat Hospital.. As much as I love doctors/ hospi stories, I love the reality part too. It also reflects the side of war that's really happening in our real world.
It aches and brings great reminders and encouragement about life. Also, I love the team spirit and the frontal responsibilities and work one could contributed to help and make a difference! whatever happens, life still moves and spirits shall not die just yet, as at the very next moment your smile may be aiding another!
@the prev episode, the chapel-line was down, seeing too many why's and having her faith at large. Nonetheless, she found her believe that actually never left her, it was just a moment.
Believe..
She reminded, to Believe. Don't forget that our beliefs will never die, don't let doubts or fear over power it..
And today, I choose to believe. Myself, my plan, my future, my joy, you.
It wow-ed me not in the most encouraging way but amazes and sends a msg this instance.
This women is amazing. but unfotunately her story ended with the practicality of reality.
I can't exact piece up my thoughts of such unexpected ending as yet it's really too cruel. It's just alil painful.
I saw that, whatever you do and choose to go, whatever the result will only matter if it's worth it. True?! Not forgetting reality and life's uncertainty.
Now I wanna watch the movie. Nonethless, her courage and testimony will definitely encourage many!
I can't be this emotionally messy then ever! Feels totally like a kid that wants to have her day and meals planned.
Tell me it's the hormones! It must be!
* Nerves and overwhelming thoughts are set aside. She just have to prickle it. then should I be understanding with the facts" and let patience and tad interest stay? Or should I be out there and be of the asking?
It's amazing how ppl uses lil words as codes without Pre-clarifications but yet the other understands. But on the other hand, at other times, words so completely said yet could be un-understood.
* I couldn't know better about the love-hate relationship I have with my job and Interest and everything around it.
The lil excitement and pleasure I had, like a conversation with an artist for work today, I think ive got a tiny seed of art(s) under those fats. Then the cutest number of thank you-s from the big man at work over a "talk" I attended with him the day before. Ok, it's also love head fr the culture within and above.
Sneak a pic of the bigman at the art gallery. Yup, more working coming up fr such.
I guess it's rare for a brand marketing that's has some design/ art relations to it, but just all underneath the sheets, and above it? The human nonsense.
I don't know why but I felt really touched reading this written by a fren; "There could never be a more beautiful you because you were wonderfully and fearfully made by our daddy"
Yep. It's true. We've got to learn to see the beauty of everyone, god's creations it is.
