when i mean what i say:

waiting can be as painful.

today meant to be a special day...
but i'm stil waiting....

*
i took urgent leave despite the many resposibilities i had @ work.
but coz its for my sis..

my tots..:
though im not a Doc or Nurse but i really feel that im so so not sensitive in words towards ppl i close to.. i mean more of the 'family' kind .. when they are ill..
( i tnk im so used to being the baby)
Often when my sis or him gets ill.. im lost in words.. how weird,
whereas when my frens are ill , i easily say soothing words to coax or comfort them...
(maybe bcoz @ hm i know my mum n dad will take gd cre o them n ive been the baby... n mayb i get embarrass for such!! *Weirdy me*)

@ the polyclinic's morning is such a uncomfy feeling.
but i guess i have to understand its the most reasonable priced ...
it got frightening and trembly to a point when i was being put in a spot of listening to the narration on the doctor to my sis...
anyway...
we waiting for 4hrs pluss.
But after such scary news.. the results was not so bad.. n we did get the refferal we wanted!
*prayers for my sis* - her strong faith and believe was there for me to see... thumbs up da jie


sitting around n fixxing up stuffs sure is another pain...
the waiting im holding is getting unbearable..
but i still have to.

if someone could ans me...
why does waiting feel this bad?
is it because of the uncertainty?
the insecurities?
the fear and the emptiness?

i bet so.
i know it all but i couldnt get rid of such!

hmph

have been in such rush rush all week...
n felt pretty unhappi about my ability in the arty side - yes ger. i really deprove in such
duno y.
the laze, the rush... or mayb...
i duno.
the environment. n my in-ability.

u know wad?
i just cant write on!
its very bloat-y!!!
n my eyes keep moving towards my hp...

i really hope thers no disappointments today!

*ger be it the not-so-gd pic bk, i really spent the nite fixing n improving it!...n i made letters n wrap all the presents.. n made it cheekily fun in putting the prezs inbetween... i really did....*



- everyone close to me... please keep 24th june avail... 4 me...
i did msg afew today....
dun ask y.. its gets embarrassed to announce it here.. but its my special day..
that day is JJ's concert... *hint* but i wan that day.. so dun plan any concerts!!!

:P

mylove


- i wanna share about the story of Joan on ST LIFE on sunday.... :)

posted by Cinds @ 4:53 PM