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its one of my worst time in school...this time im really unsure of my direction.
Had briefings n briefings n briefings all day. One frightening me after another.At Angela's class was a damn cold morning w a damn cold 'hart' ?? was hiding myself all morn.. was afraid she'll ask me of my project ideas... which i dun have any one pround to say.. luckily she didnt.... relief...
At the briefing.. found out i was posted to Alfie's grp, Totally disappointed. other reliefed n happy but i wasnt' not sure y.. but my unhappy thoughts sure did pass his ear while i was discussing it with wesley by the corridor n i realise he was just behind us.. i bet he is gonna screw me up @ tues presentation.. Dooooom
@ the video briefing.. i was in total shock.. less then 10 weeks b4 submission.. then external n internal presentation right after... 10 weeks.. its really too short. im scared. next week onwards idea presentation n license stuff to be done plus recci shots...guess wad.. i have nth. n i still know nth.. for once im really scared.
sometimes i wonder.. is my reluctance on doing this project due to my attitude that im not going to b in the Des industry is sitting in?
its so wrong. how could i give ideas n help brainstorm fro my frens yet have nth left for myself?
I was still worrying for Dee, consoling her.. n encouraging yahssir n the others, n yet, i m the one that needs help e most. they have ideas n r going thru the assuring period n research.. but yet im giving them assurance. sumtyms i wonder..
but i m glad they turn to me for help..both in sch n personal stuff..
its really v v worrying..
today Grace called me up to ask me to give up my place n video editing class for her. She needs the credit to grad. n i alrdy have enuff. but bcus i wanted to learn more editing stuff.
its was a long waiting list of students. n Gail told me i couldnt even sit in if i wanted to learn..yet tommy offered to teach me one on one. :) i was really embarrassed but happi.. but dumb me went to sms him.. n after that he saw me n said.." now i dun wanna teach u anymore.." haha..i know it sounds messed up.. but thats wad my feelings are.
messedupn unsure.. im typing n nt reading bk.. i dun wanna care. hack my typing error.. hack my grammer.. hack my language..
bcus i jus wanna run away.
Ah.
wadever. im a happi person. n i shall squuuueeeeez sum ideas.
wad ever it is. i must not fall.
as i was reading Choice Mag.. i picked up smth.
"....pick 'em up, dust 'em off and get 'em moving again..."
n oso i read abt sum chimps issues...lets SAVE them.. less then 150,000 left... n orang utans remember? lesser n lesser.. thouisands only.!!!!!!!!
maybe i'll really go work in a Zoo. haha
mylove.
(today i felt sparks. i was in a mess but i see sparks..
im sorry. i shldnt bcus i know its wrong. but in another hand im glad. life's full of surprises... lets anticipate ...)
posted by Cinds @ 1:19 AM
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