when i mean what i say:

its was very high up.. n v low dwn.

it was a rollarcoaster day.

there were smiles, tears n pain.

things were bad.. but sum brought light.

i was told that he( my fav lecturer) actually paid a amnt of money for my fren who's sch fees cldnt b paid full due to financial probs.. e amnt was small.. but he was never close to him.. he just took the letter n headed to the office, paid w his nets card n handed a $50 to my fren...
he wanted to help.
hte story goes on.. it may sound rather .....not-so galm of positive ina way.. but it really was.. n he is the kind of MAN i call MAN.

i tried to put sch aside, put unhappi tots aside n enjoy the day w e fullest positive attitude.
ofcus things never swayed my side.

but i was all ok..
until..

He argued,
he interfered,
he insist,
he hurt me.
( i tnk only he can make me cry.)

she broke smth i loved.
it was just a small thing but it all happened like opening a can of
coke u just picked up frm e floor i dropped.

i still had to smile n luff.
i still have to pretend it was flu.

i hate to hate.
xy told me to read her blog..
it melted me again..
but w tears of much love n misses this tym.

u know y i hate MARch!.
i thnk its a very-march unhappy mnth.

w hopes of studying crashed n futures a dist...
n grad a long way..
my vision has turned blured.

im trying hard to search for it.
but it seem far away.

y now. y today.. or even yesterday.
no im nt toking abt u.

wadever.. i hate to blog when i cnt even say i wad i want.

but i love my gurlfrens..
n no im not lesbian.

love u all..
Im sharing my love bcus u guys have divided my pain....
loveu all lots.

posted by Cinds @ 11:47 PM