messsssy
do u at times u feel lost n u realise u r in deep shit!?or the feeling of unsatisfactory n insecurity.... or maybe.. uncertainty...
even guilt n fright.
its weird when im not sure of my feelings n thoughts..
often im happi n upset at e same time.. sounds weird. its true.
mayb its a womans' thing. i duno. but im sure im nt alone.
i realised ive stopped writing abt the things that happened to me in my daily lives...
im starting to write stuff out of my quiet mind ..
no more tv stuff.. no more daddy stuff.
hmm.. things getting 'un-entertainy' sad.
i shall talk abt....
oh watch this canto drama... ok its the 4th tym i watched it.. today e last episode called
"Lu Jing Sui Yue"
u know y i liked the love story in it..
its e feeling Rachel n Ivan knew so strongly abt each other... they din really live thru each other's lives but yet they knew.. they met, they exchanged thoughts, they fall right in.
times change.. live goes on.. they r frens but they knew they loved each other.
they may nt b e best lover.. but they knew they cnt stop themselves frm loving n falling in love.
i know i getting v complex! ha.. but its really v complex!
i love their funny side. natural side.. serious n ambitious side towards life. the sacrificial part. the realistic side.. the trust n faith. THe love inside that only lives in them.. no1 knows best besides themselves.. this special kind.
it weird. it amazing. n i love it!
today. sum old fren o mine( a guy) told me... if he is a nice guy y cnt he get a gf..
we chatted n sort of concluded he was a shy guy.
but its apparently not.. he is a nice person. but never true to himself i feel..
u know wad.. guys often will appear less trueful then they r.
love is a complex thing.
im a complex person.
we all r.
i read the gurl's blogs today...
after so long. i had a quick review of wad they hav been doing..
:) its getting so "happening'.
Hl's topsy tervy,complexy,dramatic, lovey stories.. my god.. its getting exciting.
sorry gurl no special meanings.. but i feel that in tym.. when u look back.. ul b smiling n hapy all these happened!
haiz. im lost in words.
i can feeeeeeel e emptiness now. but im ok.
i once said. . i'd love to have a packed life.. everyday got stuff to do..
but now i feel this pile stacking on me.. n yet n slacking.. human's r weird animals.
like when i hangup saying.." he is not the one".
im damn sicko right, KIll me!
cheerios.
mylove to all..
live goes on.. n prayers shall go out to them always.
cinds'
posted by Cinds @ 1:09 AM
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