when i mean what i say:

i haven't been chasing it since the 1st few epi.

caught it lying in bed wanting to slep. but i ended up watching it till the end.

there were 2 girls left.

and midway thru the dates of the 2, i already can make a guess who He would choose over.

thou the enjoyment with both. the ladies seemed really nice. i see the lil guilt and holding back with one. true enough he choose the other, and while rejecting one, he cried and felt so guilty.

because this girl was a really nice girl. i totally agree with. nice not in ways of perfection but there are many things in her, he likes, she smiles and brings alot of joy.. and even @ the moment of rejection she showed no anger but blessings. her name is sadie.. i am not sure why i feel this thing with sadie.. i loved her joyous nature, it charms me as a women, and i can relate to the happiness she gets over her self joys. but i think i can feel her lil ache after too.

the other lady jen, was the simple girl that 1st fear falling in.. because she knew she has and was developing feelings for him.. something that is uncontrollable. that is something that can't be pretended. it is like a heart that lives on its own. well, that proves she was the one which he would choose, its mutual, more then just enjoyment.. 

would i call that love?

i am not sure.

but its a show. but it reminded me about the uncontrollable heart.

something beyond words.

but i guess it only happens in time of an irrational position/time.

preparing to go out there to love with no reservations.

but true enough, being rationale becomes a factor of controlling the heart.

i always thought that the heart never lies,

it is uncontrollable, nor prepar-able, or plan-able.

but at this age, this point, i guess i feel otherwise.

it is not just to love.

be love. have someone to love.

it is more then that.

and i guess it gets more rationale.

more cruel.

more real.

more tiring.

more aimless.

probably being old-er is the word to explain.

haha.

what an impromptu thoughts from a show.

but its true, isn't it?

i kinda hate being rationale at tyms.

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i waited for a call a whole day.

i really can't stand empty promises :(

thou its not very much of a promise..

i take each some seriously and remembers many.

humans.