when i mean what i say:

today.

marks the start of my waiting phase.

i do not like rainy days.
but i recall liking some.

but often i don't.
especially when you wake up in bed hearing the rain.
you wonder if you shld get up.. or slep back in.

the rain dampens everything.

i wanted to get my butt out for a jog.
wynn for a walk.
but now i can't.

but i think i remembers enjoying my time walking in the rain before..

maybe it is all in the mind.

like some who loves to sleep in on a rainy day.
...
today.
marks another phase.
i dare not think, dare not feel, dare not judge.
just hope.

i am taking huge breathes and reminds myself of the many..

i need to do all the things i wanted to do..
finish reading my overdue bb verses,
pack my room, wardrobe, stuffs,
clear my lappie, organise my work,
send ALOT of resumes...
hahaha.. when i tot i have nth in hand..
i do have alot to do huh!

*

acknowledged the fact,
know it. learnt it. admit it.
but i think it is the f* horrible side of human that lets you behave other wise.
but well,
i just gotta know what right ya..
hmph, its just another phase. again.
blo*dyh*ll.

*
i just wanna sit back.
i just wanna be able to smile walking together.
i just wanna be looking forward..
i just wanna be excited..
i just wanna have some butterflies..

i hope i can hop onto a plane nw.

posted by Cinds @ 2:10 PM