the smell of fresher air
a sudden rush of happiness.
its so so weird.
i am happy for the things i guess no one can understand.
*
i just wan to say thankyou to the many words that i hung on to
during this weird period of my self proclaim hard time.
i am so so grateful.
grateful that i have such encouragement and ppl to turn to..
; helping me laugh,
making me not feel alone,
letting me complain, swear,scold..
allowing me to waste their tym,
reminding me it is ok to be not me..
..
letting me have my brave front..
finally..
today..
i can let it go alil.
because i have that
lil understanding..
its so good enuff..
so good that i am smiling...
i am actually not that greedy.. haha..
because..
just this.. makes me a happy girl....
:)
god is good.
so good that i am so guilty.
i hear n feel the motions of things around me.
and i feel this slow and horrible me staying away from the daily struggles and fight ppl go thru to keep their days going..
what have i been fighting for?
just that blardy heavy heart..
maybe abit for my pockets..
finding events to fill my life..
having to dream about things i wan to do..
n so many more..
how fortunate am i already..
today i am inspired,
feel energized,
feel so so fortunate...
i smell fresher air this moment..
thankyou..
although,
this may be just another phrase..
to start with.
up i may go.. down i may fall again..
but i shall rejoice that i am still climbing up and looking up!
so,
i really should buckup!!!!!!!!!!
bcus..
life is not just about small lil things..
there are so many big big things..
even if i am yet doing the big things..
i need to do the small things well...
-
i shld really stop blabbering..
cus often i read back my post after...
i laugh at not just my broken english..
but the way i write my feelings at different times...
it is all over..
and so so confusing..
i wonder who can understand such.. but
myself :P
but well..
thats how i remind myself of my blessings..
:)
*
on the side note..
my dear dollyn shared w me great news..
it may be a not-yet confirm news..
but i am sooo happy already..
becus.. i feel that she is in good hands..
and..
she is so evil..
she make me spend $.. and tempt me go rebond hair!
; but i had a wild time talking to her...
posted by Cinds @ 12:47 AM
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