when i mean what i say:

i can't help but feel this anger and annoyance upon reading the instructions given to me.

i am really angry.

i wonder y i am this angry when i already know the bottom line of such.

when will i ever learn my lesson.

when will i ever stop complaining when i did it with all my willingness and find excuses for it.

when?

i think i really care about the things that may be happening behind me while i am gone.

i shall stop caring about such trivia craps.

i really can't help but have those Ally Mcbeal moments of thinking about what could be said, done or mocked @ of myself when im away.. and the fake and friendly smiles i am given before or after! omg. this is getting alil hilarious thou. HAHA.

maybe the upsetting thing is the pain of what i once put in.

the amount and all i gave.

and there it is.

gone with the wind.

i really dislike this side of me.

often i love to give it all..

and thou as much as i dont wish to ask for anth in return..

i often have glimpse of hope and greed to ask for at least appreciation..

oh crap.

kick that out of my head.

anyway..

its history.

let me breathe...

i give.

i was given bk actually..

hmph.

thou nt enough for this angry heart now..

but..

i learn alot alot alot then.

n given my fair share of joy and great experiences ya.

:)

breathe!! haha.

i can't wait to get into the industry and work my ass off for a real kind of Self Satisfaction!

:D

i shall work hard. harder for myself ya!

:)

thou i know i may be worst of working for real... :P

well,, sorta learnt that fair bit already.. which includes this very angry post!