when i mean what i say:

its the everyday hapi-n unhapi tots.

Wkends was wonderful.
i remember when i was on the road n smiling away...
tnking of my birkies.
squeezing my 'dark ring'- its a soft toy! a really cute 1 frm him :)

i slept smiling... went to work on a monday n felt like it was friday...
".. hello... how many days more..?" he'll ask.... "...er..3 days b4 i see u???" i replied...
"... no.. " "..OH 14 days b4 my birkies arrive! hohoh..." it was hyseterical.
i really am over e moon w buying my life-long cherry drem... n u know wad.. it comes w a bonus PAIR.!!! thats y i've gone hysterical! haha.... courtesy of jj
n then.. was my FAV. Dajie, she transfered sum amnt of $ to me.. for my camera im dying to get! it got better!haha.. but bcus today is her bday n yet she tot of mine 1s.t.. i tnk i melted ..
:P but ok.. i admit im getting materialistic here! ha... but its just those days which u wanna b pampered n feel that pampering ... it will n suppose to last me for Days..weeks..but...
butbutbut..

everything gone down pouring.
ger n i was almost in tears.
yup we mgt be behaving alil too 'over'... overly sensitive..
but my hart sanked.. my hapi mood fell.
it hit my hard the day b4 alrdy. when i felt smth against my cheek n who i saw in front of me..
but i tried to cool it... but today again.. with much disappointment..
but do i really have e right to ffeeeeel so so pain n angry?
have i e rights?
i know i dnt..
but ger u have!
yes im a bitch..
but still

after dinner w u.. i guess we got happi again...so much better...
u cldnt imagine e amnt of food we ordered..
we were trying hard to bury our pain.. n anger n disppointments.. n duno wad ever... we just ate, chat n gossip..

i guess Food is our BESTest fren after all.

i dun wanna rembr today.
the middle part.
i tnk it make my my hart pain pain..
n my eyes pain pain.

hmph.
gerrrrrrrrrrr.
im going hysterical again...
ok i shall stop here.

anyway.. he is not well...
n its a strange feeling.. more then worry..
n yet he still wait for me to get hm.. n call me...
anyways..

ger. wad u told me abt us meant so much.
thku

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah
i cnt blog no more.
its getting on me..

sum pics to relief me.
took these when we 3 silly gurls went for our Sun,Sea,Sand trip!......


my fat hands. touching the 'cotton sky'

and There's my chubby feet :)

i thnk i just ned to get away.... i cnt stand disappointments... they meant so much to me...thats y....

but life goes on..

posted by Cinds @ 2:05 AM