when i mean what i say:

Each time I get to experience a taste of the reeelworld, I wonder how fortunate or unfortunate I am.
Knowing it all, given the opportunity to taste it should give me greater exposure and wants. But knowing the limitations just makes me breathe harder. I wonder which end i am at.
these felts just makes me qs myself: "if I'm fit to be" in this industry. Or, if it suits me well to excel and never grow sick of.

Well, tasting it today over a 3hr session just keep me thinking. But; I can sum up in 2 kiddy lines:
1."a pantry recep bigger then my office space"..
2."I know it here and there yet not having capacity to exercise it".

I refuse to think professionally, because I often experience the otherwise..

It's another day! Poooof!!!!!