when i mean what i say:

Thursday, July 02, 2009

i feel like shaking myself to wake up.

because i have finally seen the truthful cruel side of the human heart.

selfish.

i actually was smiling coldly..

because i still had thoughts all evening about arranging for help..

not personally but with intentions to.

oh well.

now i feel like being

very cruel.

very selfish.

AHH.

wakeup.

anyways.

what for right?

i should have known.

the tear i shed that day probably made u glad.

cus u thought iwas still in that circle of yours..

but you are wrong.

those tears are for myself.

i felt sorry for myself.

my bday was almost perfect.

but thinking again..

i think the person that should feel sorry is really yourself.

i wish u happiness for real,

i actually rather feel the ache then feel the sorries.

but i guess you don't deserve it. at all.