when i mean what i say:: thoughts of today.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

its amazing how emotions come and go.

how one can smile and be calm one moment..

tear and shiver next..

i am surprised by that human reaction myself.

as much as we wanna know what we should do..

we wanna know what will happen if we don't or do.

call that curiosity,

call that itchy backside.

call that humanly,

call that emotions.

my sister asked me a question today;

"are you happier w/o ..."

i replied her with things i am very sure of.

"she said is it more freedom?"

i replied her with thoughts that i know,

i know i am more then willing to give up my freedom for something worthily sure/whole.

because it has nth to do with freedom, or anything in particular.

but as a whole.

;Don't look on the outside.

sometimes.

we don't weight happiness on pictures, daily doings, activities or even richness of the pockets.

but the filled heart and warmth soul.

i believe that love will find its way.

and i seek for a love that i find no reason to ask for anything i have to exchange or give up on,

but looking forward, live on and grow on with more then smiles.

if only