when i mean what i say:

it made me ponder about my "Pursuit of HappYness" in life. again?...

im sleepy
my mind is in a dreamy state.

but im stil thinking abt it.

watched "the pursuit of happYness" just now
good show.
real show.
sad show. for me.

anyways.
past monthS has been alot alot n alot

one glance back.. all i can say is.
it was alright".
i had my fair share of happY.exciTe.fUn.pAin.aNger.dRains.
oh well wad~ever"

i was on my journey bk home.
on the bus.
yes, i actually sorta insisted on a ride home-alone on 190.

things that came into me on the ride home was rather pain n bitter.
but yet after all that.. it all became REalization~mode.
like 'now i know, n i shall learn n grow frm it kind''

-frankly im lost in wad im writing now.

but i just got this urge to blog

but stil
the movie sorta shoke my hidden feelings of the real world.
anyways.
ive actually always believed...
'All we pursue in life is HAPPINESS"

n u know wad..
evrytym i hav to make a wish..
i'll wish for myself n all the ppl i love to be able to be happy everyday! (n happy is just the simple happiness im refering to...)
-im serious here.

buT. the movie made me question the lead, 'did he do all that because he had to?
or because he wanted to?'
or maybe Happyness is subjective to every period, tym n in all sorta consequences.

i once asked a fren this. ".. if having to do all thats wrong to making you happy i tnk i can stil understand.. but why are you doing smth which is so wrong and yet it doesnt make you really happy?"

- can u see that some tyms.. its because its a "have to" or a "want to" or even a "need to"
and all that makes one's Happy! but actually its not as simple i tot.
its never like what ive always hold onto in my thoughts.
of - "i do it because - it makes me happy, makes u happy..etc.."

i tnk im confusing.
haaaa
ok, if u've watched MUSIC & LYRICS.
i tnk im abit like sophie.
hahhaaa
can u understand me more now?

hahahaha
im stil vvv confusing.
ok.
mayb if i say:
LIFE Is abt pursuing happiness.
but often pursuing happiness goes thru all the needs n wants(sounds like marketing!!)
and 'had to' .. but i tnk ive never looked abt pursuing happiness as being an "obligation."

mylove
cinds

posted by Cinds @ 1:18 AM