"i still cry, but why"
thats was the cut-line from Sumiko's article on sunday's Life.."......girls and boys cry about the same amount of time until they reach the age of 12. by the time they are 18, women cry on average four times more..."
"hormones....girls have 60% more prolactin then boys.."
I definitely do not remember myself as a cry baby when i was younger. hardly cry i'd say...
now i understand why!
She also touched on how crying helps lesson the internal stress one is having.. but in the real fact, it does not solve anything.
the example she gave; " going on a holiday to 'cure' a heartache"...
and there were many other stuff about crying and being sad she mentioned...
then it moved on to ways to fight it.
"key to happier life is to lower expectations..."
"reconciling with loss"
"analyse the loss @length to delay having to come terms with it"
"deny loss at length to delay having terms with it"
"deny loss and live on the past"
"find a substitute for the loss to help you forget"
(her best read advise..)
"you can accept the loss and reconcile to its reality"
"allow yourself a good cry because it is human and okay to be sad, then pick yourself up and move on.. there's no other way, really if you want to preserve you own sanity, dignity and well-being"
so crying helps?
but i really hate the feeling of having the teary emotions all over me out of no reasons, or reasons i am trying to learn and move on.
it is tiring to hold them and swollow them.
more tiring to figure out why do i have such.
i think it is funny.
funny that as much as i'd love to have a good cry,
i fear to cry.
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i have some how learnt to remind myself to work hard with no complains nor questions.
guessed i have live-on hoping, waiting for much more in the past,
but i have realised some things just do not/will never happen to me.
i can only depend on myself and earn my wants myself.
thus, work hard and fulfill it myself.
maybe that the way my life is like.
but i am glad that for as much as my silly small wants for now..
i think i can still handle it myself.
can't wait to be able to drive and hit places i wanna be..
but maybe by then, i'll hope for more,
but till then..
1 step at a time ya.
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i enjoyed my 2day break quite very much.
nothing extravagant;
just simple pleasures with enough laughters, smiles and warmth to live with.
just like today with my 2 lovelies!
its another day/wk tmr.
hmph!
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posted by Cinds @ 12:40 AM
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