when i mean what i say:: separate body/mind.

Friday, February 27, 2009

its pretty morning.

woke up with some "noise" and a warm msg :)

off; to do wads needed in a bit.

finished was i was supposed to do.

receive a phone call which i knew it coming.. but hoped it didn't.

the kind of breathe i take now is completely different from the previous moment.

i wonder why.

i feel like i have 2 different mind&bodies living in me.

1 living by the joy and enthusiasm of my wants.

the other 1 living by the turns and changes of each day's struggles and thoughts.

i think i have a 3rd body;

this 1 living by my hopes and dreams and disciplines of lessons learnt.

i wonder why do i have such a separate mind, body, heart like now..

i wished i could do better.

i wished i knew what is/was right.

i hate to complain, i hate to find excuses for myself.

i hate to say "i know i am selfish but i .."

i hate to feel unsure.

i hate to have my heart beating so fast for the wrong reasons, like now.

: i feel like screaming this moment more then me wanting a hug from you the other time.

is that why?

i had my first swimming lesson yesterday!

:):):):)

just saw the photos,

i think i looked like an idiot.

but.

i had a wonderful tym!

my frens really push me, and love me (i hope!)

haha.

really wanna thank them for how they shower me with.

the time, the effort, the care, the torture! :P