when i mean what i say:

mix feelings

had a great day out @ sentosa today :)

the last time i was at a beach was months ago @ krabi!!!!!!!!
how long was that.

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i'm pretty much very stuck with some work now.
so stuck i've been on the com since 11++++pm.

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i suddenly felt heartbroken.

i know its pretty silly to feel so.

but when u feel that u are actually 'forgotten/nobody' towards some people, someone..
you feel this weird and uncomfortable bitterness.

" i never knew i was that nobody in your eyes,
i shouldnt have said what i said..
i guess i was asking for it,
i just realised i've been living in my self decieving world for the longest time..

i feel so awkward and ashamed.
i'm beginning to erase all my memories of you.
because i believe i was never meant to stay.

never even meant to be remembered.

thank you for letting me live in my self decieving world for tad long.

i couldnt believe my last conversation words to you were
"i probably got the wrong person"
it actually makes me wanna laugh now.

maybe its because,
u left a deeper chapter in my life then i did in yours.

i hope i'll never see or hear from you ever again.

goodbye."

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my darling baby wynn is literally crying in my arms now.
she is sick.
not sure whats wrong.
but she is whining n whining..
and shivering in the nite.
n she feels soft and all.

she is such a baby.
i feel alil mean to scold her for whining at pratically every noise/sound.
the ringing of the phone, the door bell, Television's sudden bangs etc etc.

:) thats a life of a "mother"



I should really get back to work.

posted by Cinds @ 1:52 AM