when i mean what i say:

It happened and it ended.
The long and handwork then result just came and left. It's like in a blink of an eye. I didn't know why but satisfaction was way short-lived then I ever thought it would be. Excitement barely kept me glad for long. Praises was unsought for.

I kindof knew why. I kindof am still searching for the answer. I'd like to treat it as another growing up lesson in life.