when i mean what i say:

I never really "stopped" after returning from japan.. But today I kindof "stopped" and sat down with some or almost nothing in my mind and no rush thoughts/schedule.

But it felt scary.
Yes, I'm afraid.

Afraid to stop and think.

What just went by me again? What's ahead and what's good for me?

I won't be stopping for the next 2weeks again.
I hope that by then, I'll feel no/ less fear.

-remembering today-