when i mean what i say:

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

the only reason one should compromise for another

is when it does not tear the heart.

the reason why i am still swollowing the bitterness

is something i could'nt piece.

it really isn't torturous,

but moments of controlling tears and feeling so bitter, eats me up.

i keep wondering if it is pms. or is it my level of tolerance,

my immature self, my lack of courage,

my fear, or my incapabilities.

Each time, dad comments,

i really can't help but feel like wailing like a baby.

it was like the time where i had my firstlove.

i never teared, until the evening when dad said something

and when i answered back, all my bitterness outflowed..

i cried so hard. but felt so grown up after.

but unfortunately, this is not matters of the heart that makes u

sweet or happy. and growout of.

it is a portion of your living life,

should i even live with it?

what good does it bring?

i don't wish to see a softy' in me.

but how often i just want to fall down and surrender.

it makes me feel small and weak.

makes me feel unloved and upsets the soul.

i hope by compromising,

it does not make me one a grumpy human.

if it does,

someone please slap me hard and make me leave.

Thanku for making me feel not alone.

there is something that i learnt,

i can never bring out the upset when i see u.

i wonder why.

either you are annoying enough or i really don't want you to show you my bitterness.

or it is the comfort of the mentality that understands and settles me down.

but eitherway, it works.

and i am grateful for our friendship.

thankyou there..