when i mean what i say:

Life and death.

this is the umpteen-th time im writing about life and death.

i'm actually watching Lydia Sum's farewell ceremony, live on CH48 now.
it wasnt intentional. im doing sum work n was channel surfing..

its a long ceremony, i off it midway just now.. n now i turned it bk on..

its making my tears roll dwn.
not the speeches, not the tales frm the doctors, her frens.
thou her daughter's speech on her mum being her 'shooting star'.. and her mum's real self on n off screen.. with her hair she calls hat', her specs she call 'spectacular'... made me listened and teared..

but the realheartfelt pain is now..
when ppl are walking up this huge stage. giving flowers.. shaking her daughter's hand.. hugging her.. kissing her.. whispering words of love..
tons n tons of ppl. i saw artist.. many many..
but what caught me crying so hard now..

is the smile on her daughter's face'

her daughter.
she is the closest. the only love. her child.
but she held her mother's brave happiness on her face this moment.
i think the walkup will last for more then an hour.. n her smile is hanging on there..

i feel for her this moment.

She is an amazing artist.
her child is an amazing woman.
she will be very proud.

:)

lets embrace life this very moment.
and cheer for all who loved and shared happiness to all.



To: lydia sum's daughter;

its not gonna be easy.
tmr its gonna be harder then today.
but i really feel that u did very well. and your mother is smiling from above.
she wouldnt be expecting any.
but i guess she would love to see u be happy again soon.

holding on and letting go. harder then the other.
may the moist pillow tonite bring you a better day tmr.

u shld live ur life better each day now,
because u r living ur mother's life too..
u r her extension of her love for life.
just like the extension of god's love in many ways.

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posted by Cinds @ 4:10 PM