when i mean what i say:

first hart-felt..frm note pad.

i realise smth yest...ur hart,ur soul, ur mind and your eyes are all connected.(i know it sounds dumb)when tears flow uncontrollably for hours .. u wondered whats so upsetting...when u just cant sleep .. u wonder if you are really tired.
its like u dont exactly know wad u r feeling..ur bady tells speaks for itself.

this feeling of emptiness above happiness floods over me, its pretty weird.
evry tym i return after those nites i thnk this happens...
i can still recall the few other tyms before.but if im not wrong..
there was one which i did not feel this way...it was the nite i spent with him.
weird. confusing. painful yet amazing
:a woman's heart.

have to write this down before this amazing happy-thing bfor it becums not-so.

+ being acknowledge as a lady in them
+ being looked after by them.. for once i feel like a gurl
+ he did not look beneathe my sleeves..under my clothes...
it was just inside my body... my heart..
he respected me.
+ i was tired, but i was happy
+ i was abit hard on me.. but i think it was very worth it.
+ i smiled when i recieved ur sms.
+ i felt lucky to have them.
+ i've seen very much of a grown man in the few... those matured harts. those ways,
those little movements... under those silly/immature beheaviours. so precious.
+ i love them. the kind of love i treasure. the kind of love i never knew existed.
+ if there was a recorder...a player... a camera... a torch... smth to shine: keep: hold:
+ thanku. it was made worthwhile.
+ i dunno y.. i feel e urge to cry. i think ive found love it many areas.. except there . maybe.

finally:
when i was trying hard to stop them from flowing..she looked in my eyes...
n she teared with me...its so amazing..
she then sat by the bed and cried... turn n look back at me...
lay down and waited for me.
thanku.. mylove...my baby. she's nt just my companion...
she's is someone.

posted by Cinds @ 1:45 AM